afraid
I dont know what it is or what it was that did it to me. But now you are back..I wasnt ready yet to see you. I dont want to be hurt by you. You invaded my personal space verbally abused me and threatened me. Why when you drink do you think you will you not do it again because I believe you will. What makes you so changed. It was months between both times and now I dont believe any part of you and it hurts to think that I could of trusted you entirely yet it hurts now to say I dont believe in you. I hate staying here or anywhere close to you because I feel like you will find me and I have nowhere to hide. Your obsession seems to have dissipated yet every so often I get the feeling it has not gone. Last night when I heard from you I wanted to hide, to disappear. I dont want to be afraid in my home. I dont want to be afraid of someone like you.