AAMuses 2.2: Serenity Prayer

Jun 30, 2008 19:46

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I'm Sally, and my mom's an alcoholic.

I can't change that. I can't change how she behaves, or what she does. Every day she doesn't drink is her choice, not mine. Nothing I can do or say, or not do or not say, makes the choice for her. I can't control her actions. If she takes a drink tomorrow, there's nothing in my power to prevent that. I need to accept this. I need to look at my helplessness and remain calm.

I can control my actions, my choices. I need to have courage, to be brave enough to remain in control of my life. I need to make the choices I have, to speak up for myself. I need to learn everything I can about an option, make a decision, and stick to it. Make it work. Be strong enough to see it through, all the consequences. I need to be brave, and strong, and true to myself. I need to do it for me.

I have to look at my life and know which is which. I have to learn, to know, to study and listen and ask question. I have to learn everything, know everything, so that I know when to act and when to remain calm. To know when a thing is mine, my decision, or if it is someone else's. I have to know everything, so I can make the right choice, so I can make a difference, so I can stay in control.

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