Another giant step in life
Hello everyone! Its me again. For a very long time I haven't updated this blog.
Yeah, been very very extremely busy with life. I worked 10 hours a day , Monday till Thursday. On Friday, usually I did errands, like house errands, as an adult, for some reason, there's a lot of things going on. On saturday, me and my husband would hang out together because that is the only time we both are free and can see each other. I pitied him too because he also work his ass off. Came back from work, looking very tired but neitherless, he still spend time with me, watching anime together at night as I eventually feel sleepy and goes to bed and woke up the next morning to go to work again and the cycle begins. Hahahaha. Oh, and on Sunday, we usually go to buy groceries together. Usually we did our groceries like once a month or twice a month but lately we need to buy groceries every week.
Anyways, the reason I wrote this blog again is to announce you guys a good news. A happy news for both of us (me and my husband)..
I am officially pregnant! And i'm at 37 weeks, 4 days!
So, currently I'm at home, taking my time off from work. (I am glad too, I don't need to deal with work stuffs, haha) I've been relaxing a little bit, cleaning house, and do a lot of errands. Since anytime my baby can come out at anytime! Well, I hope its on the date. ANyways, this is a really good news for me and my husband. And we think it is time to plan and having a baby. I had enjoyed my life and I think it is time!
To be honest, I am not ready. I can't imagine of having a baby. I had no experience at all. Even though i'm the oldest among my siblings, when they are little, I don't really take care of them. Taking care of them means taking care of them while they are babies. Lol. I always fought with my siblings. hahaha. So, to have a baby soon, it really creeps me out and I feel anxious almost every day. Sometimes too much overthink till I can't sleep. I think it is because I don't know what will happen in the future.
Living in States, all by youself is hard. It is just me and my husband and few friends. But you still need a family support too. Family is everything. ANd close friends and those friends that you trusted the most will help you too. No matter where you go, you still miss your hometown. I wanna go back to Malaysia so badly! But I know, for now, I am chasing and focusing on my career first.
All the 9 months of pregnancy, I am struggling to keep my diet to be healthy. It is so hard. I am glad that I am a Muslim and Muslims forbidden alcohol, so no alcohol. But being no caffeine and much less on sugar is hard. Because I LOVE Boba Milk Tea and desserts. I admit, for the few months early of pregnancy, I am having morning sickness. And I ate unhealthy food sometimes because it is so hard to swallow for some of the food. But alhamdulillah , I manage to go through. During second trimester of pregancy, people usually called it as a honeymoon phase because that time, you are very comfortable at that stage. You can eat almost everything, no morning sickness, etc..
But as soon as it gets to the third trimester, the struggle begins....
I am at my third trimester. And I struggled hard. You feel your belly is so big until you can't even see your legs when you're standing. hahha. You can't sleep. Always make a lot of trips to the bathroom. And one thing that really annoys you sometimes, is you have this unconsistant of contractions (usually not painful), and also your lower back hurts all the time if you overwork youself, pelvic muscles pain and so on. I guess, moms out there, they really are sacrificing and bear all of these pains but still love their child! So sons and daughters, don't ever DERHAKA to your parents. HAHHAHA... Listen to your parents. They really struggle and giving birth is not easy.
One of the biggest fear that I have right now is giving birth. No moms would say giving birth is easy and not painful. I am the type of easily scared and sometimes can't tolerate pains. Especially needles. I HATE NEEDLES. I hope I can go through the labor in like few weeks. Omg, I can'timagine how painful it will be since I am not taking epidural. THis is because my family has dark history about epidural. The moment when my mom heard of me of saying that I am considering of taking epidural, my mom's face changed and immediately she called me on the phone to stop me from taking the epidural. She said, yes it is painful. But no matter what, do not take epidural. Unless, there's no choice like if you have to make a C section (surgery). My mom said, Allah has given us the body to withstand the pain and it is Jihad. Semua dosa2 kita semua akan hilang bila bersalin nanti. :)
So, good luck to me! My mom also gonna come here to help me during my 'Pantang'. Which is I am really glad because she decided to come here at a very last minute especially she's really phobia to take an airplane to fly across the pacific ocean. hahaha. So, I hope everything will goes smoothly for our family! InsyaAllah! Pray for us. :)
Yeah, been very very extremely busy with life. I worked 10 hours a day , Monday till Thursday. On Friday, usually I did errands, like house errands, as an adult, for some reason, there's a lot of things going on. On saturday, me and my husband would hang out together because that is the only time we both are free and can see each other. I pitied him too because he also work his ass off. Came back from work, looking very tired but neitherless, he still spend time with me, watching anime together at night as I eventually feel sleepy and goes to bed and woke up the next morning to go to work again and the cycle begins. Hahahaha. Oh, and on Sunday, we usually go to buy groceries together. Usually we did our groceries like once a month or twice a month but lately we need to buy groceries every week.
Anyways, the reason I wrote this blog again is to announce you guys a good news. A happy news for both of us (me and my husband)..
I am officially pregnant! And i'm at 37 weeks, 4 days!
So, currently I'm at home, taking my time off from work. (I am glad too, I don't need to deal with work stuffs, haha) I've been relaxing a little bit, cleaning house, and do a lot of errands. Since anytime my baby can come out at anytime! Well, I hope its on the date. ANyways, this is a really good news for me and my husband. And we think it is time to plan and having a baby. I had enjoyed my life and I think it is time!
To be honest, I am not ready. I can't imagine of having a baby. I had no experience at all. Even though i'm the oldest among my siblings, when they are little, I don't really take care of them. Taking care of them means taking care of them while they are babies. Lol. I always fought with my siblings. hahaha. So, to have a baby soon, it really creeps me out and I feel anxious almost every day. Sometimes too much overthink till I can't sleep. I think it is because I don't know what will happen in the future.
Living in States, all by youself is hard. It is just me and my husband and few friends. But you still need a family support too. Family is everything. ANd close friends and those friends that you trusted the most will help you too. No matter where you go, you still miss your hometown. I wanna go back to Malaysia so badly! But I know, for now, I am chasing and focusing on my career first.
All the 9 months of pregnancy, I am struggling to keep my diet to be healthy. It is so hard. I am glad that I am a Muslim and Muslims forbidden alcohol, so no alcohol. But being no caffeine and much less on sugar is hard. Because I LOVE Boba Milk Tea and desserts. I admit, for the few months early of pregnancy, I am having morning sickness. And I ate unhealthy food sometimes because it is so hard to swallow for some of the food. But alhamdulillah , I manage to go through. During second trimester of pregancy, people usually called it as a honeymoon phase because that time, you are very comfortable at that stage. You can eat almost everything, no morning sickness, etc..
But as soon as it gets to the third trimester, the struggle begins....
I am at my third trimester. And I struggled hard. You feel your belly is so big until you can't even see your legs when you're standing. hahha. You can't sleep. Always make a lot of trips to the bathroom. And one thing that really annoys you sometimes, is you have this unconsistant of contractions (usually not painful), and also your lower back hurts all the time if you overwork youself, pelvic muscles pain and so on. I guess, moms out there, they really are sacrificing and bear all of these pains but still love their child! So sons and daughters, don't ever DERHAKA to your parents. HAHHAHA... Listen to your parents. They really struggle and giving birth is not easy.
One of the biggest fear that I have right now is giving birth. No moms would say giving birth is easy and not painful. I am the type of easily scared and sometimes can't tolerate pains. Especially needles. I HATE NEEDLES. I hope I can go through the labor in like few weeks. Omg, I can'timagine how painful it will be since I am not taking epidural. THis is because my family has dark history about epidural. The moment when my mom heard of me of saying that I am considering of taking epidural, my mom's face changed and immediately she called me on the phone to stop me from taking the epidural. She said, yes it is painful. But no matter what, do not take epidural. Unless, there's no choice like if you have to make a C section (surgery). My mom said, Allah has given us the body to withstand the pain and it is Jihad. Semua dosa2 kita semua akan hilang bila bersalin nanti. :)
So, good luck to me! My mom also gonna come here to help me during my 'Pantang'. Which is I am really glad because she decided to come here at a very last minute especially she's really phobia to take an airplane to fly across the pacific ocean. hahaha. So, I hope everything will goes smoothly for our family! InsyaAllah! Pray for us. :)