dark cloud over your head

[sakurachanmcrx]

have to ask myself, if i really ever had you?

were you really ever there?

i know its all my fault.

i know i am to blame.

but really, wasnt it suppose to make us stronger?

i want to make it right.

but i dont know anymore or how.

i dont think i am worth it

you are so much better now.

do you really need the dark cloud, that i am, over your head?

do you even care?

i know i am not making things better, in fact, only worser.

but i want you to know, i am dying inside.

just in case you didnt notice.

i dont want to hurt you anymore.

i know i am.

or maybe, i dont exist anymore to make such an impact.

i wish i knew what was happening.

how to explain it all.

but i dont.

and it hurts me more not knowing how, than i can ever hurt you.

i cried yesterday, because i didnt feel you.

i havent felt you in so long.

i dont want to lose you.

but i am so lost as it is, i dont think i can find my way back.

maybe its better this way.

you have so much light. do you really need my darkness?

i wish i could tell you this.

i wish it didnt have to be expressed like this.

you have so much to give.....while i want to take more than i should take.

i wish i could go back in time.

i wish i could change it.

but its too late.

please tell me its not to late.