DELUSION [ CHAPTER 1 ]
NIGHTMARE
The wind was as cold as ice. The rain water felt like sharp stones against her skin. She dragged her bloody form to the front door and pushed it open. Gently, she made her way up the stairs passing the other rooms. Her breathing was heavy, shallow...and angry. It was as if her body was made of clouds.........the intensity of her silence. Each breath was like a knife stabbing into her chest. The door flew open. And she stood there staring at the form on the bed. She stared at him with her steely bloodshot eyes. The rest of her face, a dark blur. Angst overcame her and she moved forward towards him. He slept on, shifting uncomfortably at the new change of atmosphere in his room. Her scabbed fingernails made their way to his face...... His heart beat began echoing in the room. It was so loud, and fast... His breathing became uneven. He rolled over....................................................... and opened his eyes............
He had rolled off his bed. He sat there, covered in his blankets. He felt cold, nauseous and wet for some reason. Standing up he noted in the mirror that he was completely drenched in sweat. It looked as if he had dived into a pool of icy water. Nevertheless, he breathed a sigh of relief... because in his nightmare it wasn’t sweat that coated him... it was blood.
“Ryosuke...” his mother’s voiced called from below. He ran into the shower and undressed hiding his shirt deep beneath the other garments in the laundry basket. Last thing he wanted was his mother to find out he got scared by his own dream.
“Itai.....” he mumbled. His whole body was still aching. And water didn’t exactly do him any good either... How he made it through breakfast, the train ride, and then finally at work seemed dazed.
“ OHIO!” Yuto’s happy voice woke him up from his daze. He forced a weak smile as Yuto and Yuri clambered into the elevator after him.
“ Guess what? We had takoyaki for breakfast...
“ Yeah, because Yuto just HAD to have them....
“They smelled too good to ignore!!... Desho Ryo? Takoyaki tastes so nice when its hot...”
“Its so early in the morning! ....” Yuri replied laughing and glanced at Ryo who remained numb.
“Ryosuke...daijobu?” he asked again.
Startled, Yamada withdrew his gaze from the three elevators opposite to theirs and looked at them.
“I’m fine.... sorry....its just...those elevators still under maintenance huh? “ he asked avoiding the topic of him being ‘ fine’, because he certainly wasn’t.
“Oh ... Yeah... their taking forever aren’t they? Its always blocked here during rush hours. So many of us going home on the same time gets these things clogged “ Yuto smiled as the elevator made its way up. Yamada remained numb. The sudden shift of the elevator made him feel even worse.
As calmly as he could he made his way to the common room where the rest of the boys would be waiting. And everything would be alright again. Just a few more steps back to reality.
But much to his dismay, what waited inside was yet another step away from the reality to which he wished to return to.