so fucking pissed!
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh!!! fuck this man!!! im soo fucking piss at the moment!! just AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH!!!!! i need to fucking yell but got no fucking place to yell and it can't fucking yell in the first place cause it's fucking 11pm!!! "SDG
/fm;klab;g'klarkj'dg"LKSFDLDF
sorry sorry.. that was me releasing my anger on the keyboard but itsn't sufficant enough.
this is what pissing me off today... today i went out with my lil sis and my bro.. it was great! i finally had some quality time with my brother and sister and enjoying my day. went to Sunway Lagoon, it's a water/dry theme park! it was awesome... sorry didn't take photos cause we were enjoying ourselves so much we were running around to go to places....
yesterday i found out something terrible... my friend cheated on my friend and etc etc etc... not fucking botherd to explian.. and now my friend is pissed cause he found out and aaaaaargh! im just sooo pissed at her! and aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh!!!!!
then other problem is that tomorrow my friends wanna hang out and do a sleep over but i can't make it cause i have no transport and my mum don't like me sleeping over people's houses. but then i wanna go cause two of my friends from london flew here to see me and my other friends and they are leaving soon and aaaargh! can't make it and they are piss. they want to chat to my mom and sort it out but there is no doubt they would win cause my mom's mind is soo strong =___= she is too strong willed... and they are pissed at me cause i can't make it and it's not my fault! plus i have to get things for my school trip is that is coming up soon and tomorrow is the only day cause i won't have any free day afterwards and my parents are busy 24/7 and they are just so pissed at me... i'm sick and tired of people yelling at me cause i can't come to a bloody gathering! they think that just cause i'm not coming because i don't fucking feel like it! WHAT THE FLYING FUCK MAN! i care as much as them and was so fucking looking forward to it! and things AREN'T always fucking perfect and they are all blaming me! and im just sooooo fucking pissed! i'm tired, cold (wore wet clothe from the amusament park), exhausted and got many things to plan and i can't always do all of them! yeah it IS my fault for leaving things last minute! but can't help it cause everyone in my family is busy with their own buisness! just for flying fuck i want people to stop blaming me for things JUST because i cannot make to a fucking gathering! i know that i won't hardly see them for fucking again! and they don't know much fucking much i miss them like hell! they don't fucking know how much i miss london to the point i cry everynight to return and pray (well maybe not pray but i do sometimes) to return for just at least a day or so.... i swear malaysia made my life more complex and fucked everything... i can't even do my japanese GCSE cause i can't find a fucking japanese class... if i wanna find out things i have to go there and when the fucking hell do i have the time to do that! and my mom is bugging me about the fucking future and comparing me to my best friend who is fucking doing her a level! for fuck sake leave me fucking alone! it's not only do i get pressured from home and friends but at school! when the fuck am i suppose to relax for a tiny bit! i'm just so fucking piss.. i'm sorry to everyone for my foul language... i tend to go more extreme but i try to put a limit to myself on LJ... sorry for swearing too much... i'm just sooo damn pissed to the point where i would punch the wall again... but don't want to =___= got school in a few days.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH!!! lemme fucking go back to london!!! where things were fast, quick and accurante (sp) i just want my life back in london so much... i can't stand this... problems with my studies... then with home... family... parents... money and now friends... that is the last thing i fucking need... fuck this man.
by the way... i bought 3 albums.. well with my brother's money... utada - exodus, Xenogears OST, Kingdom Heart OST loving them all now
/fm;klab;g'klarkj'dg"LKSFDLDF
sorry sorry.. that was me releasing my anger on the keyboard but itsn't sufficant enough.
this is what pissing me off today... today i went out with my lil sis and my bro.. it was great! i finally had some quality time with my brother and sister and enjoying my day. went to Sunway Lagoon, it's a water/dry theme park! it was awesome... sorry didn't take photos cause we were enjoying ourselves so much we were running around to go to places....
yesterday i found out something terrible... my friend cheated on my friend and etc etc etc... not fucking botherd to explian.. and now my friend is pissed cause he found out and aaaaaargh! im just sooo pissed at her! and aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh!!!!!
then other problem is that tomorrow my friends wanna hang out and do a sleep over but i can't make it cause i have no transport and my mum don't like me sleeping over people's houses. but then i wanna go cause two of my friends from london flew here to see me and my other friends and they are leaving soon and aaaargh! can't make it and they are piss. they want to chat to my mom and sort it out but there is no doubt they would win cause my mom's mind is soo strong =___= she is too strong willed... and they are pissed at me cause i can't make it and it's not my fault! plus i have to get things for my school trip is that is coming up soon and tomorrow is the only day cause i won't have any free day afterwards and my parents are busy 24/7 and they are just so pissed at me... i'm sick and tired of people yelling at me cause i can't come to a bloody gathering! they think that just cause i'm not coming because i don't fucking feel like it! WHAT THE FLYING FUCK MAN! i care as much as them and was so fucking looking forward to it! and things AREN'T always fucking perfect and they are all blaming me! and im just sooooo fucking pissed! i'm tired, cold (wore wet clothe from the amusament park), exhausted and got many things to plan and i can't always do all of them! yeah it IS my fault for leaving things last minute! but can't help it cause everyone in my family is busy with their own buisness! just for flying fuck i want people to stop blaming me for things JUST because i cannot make to a fucking gathering! i know that i won't hardly see them for fucking again! and they don't know much fucking much i miss them like hell! they don't fucking know how much i miss london to the point i cry everynight to return and pray (well maybe not pray but i do sometimes) to return for just at least a day or so.... i swear malaysia made my life more complex and fucked everything... i can't even do my japanese GCSE cause i can't find a fucking japanese class... if i wanna find out things i have to go there and when the fucking hell do i have the time to do that! and my mom is bugging me about the fucking future and comparing me to my best friend who is fucking doing her a level! for fuck sake leave me fucking alone! it's not only do i get pressured from home and friends but at school! when the fuck am i suppose to relax for a tiny bit! i'm just so fucking piss.. i'm sorry to everyone for my foul language... i tend to go more extreme but i try to put a limit to myself on LJ... sorry for swearing too much... i'm just sooo damn pissed to the point where i would punch the wall again... but don't want to =___= got school in a few days.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH!!! lemme fucking go back to london!!! where things were fast, quick and accurante (sp) i just want my life back in london so much... i can't stand this... problems with my studies... then with home... family... parents... money and now friends... that is the last thing i fucking need... fuck this man.
by the way... i bought 3 albums.. well with my brother's money... utada - exodus, Xenogears OST, Kingdom Heart OST loving them all now