big girls don't cry...
today.. I mean yesterday.. I saw how strong my friend is.. she struggled so hard on her final exam of her thesis.. yet the lecturers asked her to redo her exam due to minor mistake.. so she will have another exam on next week.. I knew she was upset or disappointed, even she looked calm.. where did she get that calmness!? she really become a mature lady.. tho, a friend texted me, "is she alright? she looks denied today's accident.."
I don't know..is it wrong or not if someone denied some-bad-things on their life.. but, hey! I knew is unhealthy, but this is what we called mature calmness isn't it?
my lecturer said when we were on freshman grade.. "Javanese people always hide their true feeling." or if i can say.. the Javanese always let everything gone with the wind, tho some people who can't bear it will do "ngerasani"-thingy..
even tho it's quite abnormal on global's point of view, but it's normal in Java, especially in our beloved city, Semarang.. they really smart to hide their true feeling, in which i can't do it because i'm a transparent girl with obvious expressions..
dear my beloved friend.. I know you've tried your best to do this stuff.. and you always stand firm even the storm has come.. actually Allah SWT won't give a scourge which you can't surpass it.. but if you get tired, i'm ready to lend my shoulder for you.. even tho you're a big girl who doesn't cry..
somehow i remembered about one of my friend.. she said.. "the really final battle it's not final exam of our thesis.. but how we can get a proper job.." and I.. my self.. still didn't get there.. aaah.. somebody.. please give me a courage!! i wonder how everyone can stand still but i'm not.. *sobs*
p.s. one of my friend also said maybe my crush realized that i've got an interest over him.. finally! senpai notices me!!! tho i don't know what will i do then.. rofl
*glad to be an obvious girl*