"The Deathwatch is ticking again."
Well lets go over what I did today:
1. Went to school
2. Went to work
3. Came home and sat and read all fucking night.
I finished Stephen Kings, "Insomnia". It's a really good book. It's only 780 pages longs and out of that I read 200 tonight. I would have rather done something else. I loved the book, but being with my friends would have been better. Today I decided that I'm not going to call anyone. I wanted to see who would actually call me. Yeah.......no one did, but its to be expected. I'm not pissed at anyone. After all most of the guys had band practice and everyone else was at work or busy doing something else. I guess I needed to stay home? I haven't stayed home for a single night in a long time. The only reason I hate nights like these is because I think way too much. Its dangerous to my health. I'm not joking either, I absolutely HATE being by myself. I get depressed WAY to easily, and that scares the shit out of me. See here I go again thinking about it making it worse than it actually is. I do enjoy having time to myself, I don't have to be around someone 24/7. But for the most part I like to be with someone, and sitting in my room for 4 solid hours is not good. Tomorrow I have to go through the basic routine of school, work.........and then what?
I'm anxious, but why?
sleep is going to be a hell of a task tonight
lately sleep has been more like school: not fun
i worry too much about absolutely nothing
now i'm worrying about worrying
ok, its time to stop
this is pretty messed up
i don't remember what i typed earlier
fuck it
hard
1. Went to school
2. Went to work
3. Came home and sat and read all fucking night.
I finished Stephen Kings, "Insomnia". It's a really good book. It's only 780 pages longs and out of that I read 200 tonight. I would have rather done something else. I loved the book, but being with my friends would have been better. Today I decided that I'm not going to call anyone. I wanted to see who would actually call me. Yeah.......no one did, but its to be expected. I'm not pissed at anyone. After all most of the guys had band practice and everyone else was at work or busy doing something else. I guess I needed to stay home? I haven't stayed home for a single night in a long time. The only reason I hate nights like these is because I think way too much. Its dangerous to my health. I'm not joking either, I absolutely HATE being by myself. I get depressed WAY to easily, and that scares the shit out of me. See here I go again thinking about it making it worse than it actually is. I do enjoy having time to myself, I don't have to be around someone 24/7. But for the most part I like to be with someone, and sitting in my room for 4 solid hours is not good. Tomorrow I have to go through the basic routine of school, work.........and then what?
I'm anxious, but why?
sleep is going to be a hell of a task tonight
lately sleep has been more like school: not fun
i worry too much about absolutely nothing
now i'm worrying about worrying
ok, its time to stop
this is pretty messed up
i don't remember what i typed earlier
fuck it
hard