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Today was the best experience I have had in med school so far. It really validated my decision to go down this path in life and removed many of the insecurities I've been having. After spending hours after hours in lecture, lab, and the library, I really lost sight of the point of it all. But today, after talking to my two patients, it just reminded me of why this was my childhood dream. In the end it's all about the patient. If I can help make a difference and improve the quality of life for others in the future, then I will have led a meaningful existence.
Since high school (yes, I'm a slow thinker) I have struggled with finding a purpose in life. What's the point of living if it's just to get through a daily grind, waiting for an inevitable end? Would it even matter if I was never here in the first place? With each passing year, I'm finally able to slowly piece some of the answer together (yes, I'm also a slow learner).
I would be foolish to think that all my future patients will be as amazing as the ones I've had today but I will remain hopeful that I will be able to extract a life lesson from each of them in the future. The moment that they become commodities rather than individuals will be the end.
My current mood probably won't last until Monday, when the book memorizing will have firmly pulled me back into the darkness. Right now though, I am happy.
Since high school (yes, I'm a slow thinker) I have struggled with finding a purpose in life. What's the point of living if it's just to get through a daily grind, waiting for an inevitable end? Would it even matter if I was never here in the first place? With each passing year, I'm finally able to slowly piece some of the answer together (yes, I'm also a slow learner).
I would be foolish to think that all my future patients will be as amazing as the ones I've had today but I will remain hopeful that I will be able to extract a life lesson from each of them in the future. The moment that they become commodities rather than individuals will be the end.
My current mood probably won't last until Monday, when the book memorizing will have firmly pulled me back into the darkness. Right now though, I am happy.