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I really should be finishing up some homework right now, but it's really hard to concentrate. For some reason I can't stop thinking about it even though I know I should. I keep thinking about things that I thought were so innocent and it makes me so incredibly sad to know that i was completey blinded the whole time. I can't do anything about it now, so I dont know why I cant get over it. Its the worst feeling you know...the worst. I just want to be happy and even though I'm trying so incredibly hard, it just creeps up on me like nothing else ever has before. I want to scream out at the top of my lungs and tell the world how much I hate it and....and....just....ugh, FUCK. Sometimes I really do hate her...but I know that I really shouldn't. Besides, I guess it was all my fault anyways...i just don't think that i deserved that.
and no, i wont tell you what, why, how, or when...sorry
its just like i have told you many times before...getting it down somewhere is such a relief.
and no, i wont tell you what, why, how, or when...sorry
its just like i have told you many times before...getting it down somewhere is such a relief.