wow, i almost forgot about this journal

[saiyinspirit]

life is hard, but messing it up is quite simple and easy i recommend The Tao of Pooh. it is a book about Taoist philosophies related to the little bear also if u have tastes nearly as eclectic as mine, Blue Like Jazz is a good book i would like to elaborate on my initial remake with this remake: i have no discipline i hope to learn it by taking Kung-Fu but i don't know how much of my not practicing my teacher will tolerate, but as long as i can walk i will be at his classes hopefully with only a few bruises i will learn the overlooked art of discipline then maybe i can try music, who knows and then i have to smile around a friend who i watch take advantage of another friend who was just discovering emotions, maybe she will take the second half easier when she realizes what he is doing to her the urges of a 14 yr old in the body of a 19 yr old surrounded by selfish, irresponsible ppl to know it isn't as hard as seeing it and the worst is not knowing what to do about it, she is too attachted and immature to see what he is doing and by the time she is able, if ever now, i will have even less of an idea of how to show her people are so hard to love, we really are far more like sheep than we can admit even to ourselves and my accute inadequicies are more obvious at times like this

pray for me those that don't pray, let me know and i'll pray harder for you