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*chuckles and types quietly*
okay, so first off, i totally aced midterms last week. Nothing more to say about that other than i am only bald on one side of my head from pulling my hair out in worry. Oh yeah, and for those who know this part, Single White Female has been put a stop to. Whew! *wiping the sweat from my head*
was wondering if i should be putting this public or not, but what the hell. i have no secrets and though i will respect a certain someOne's request to be shush about things to His new...erm...pet i am going to leave this public anyways. Again. ya'll who know, KNOW what the deal is. Bobby flew into BWI friday morning/afternoon and i arrived in Philly saturday morning.
Thanks to tracy/lilN for keeping an ear out for Bobby until i got there, unfortunately since i missed that day for the operation and it was midterm week i wasn't able to go with him on friday and he didn't want to wait until saturday. Things were handled for him, and "things" were handled for me. i will be the first to admit that it felt wonderful being back in His arms and that to bite my tongue while he plays AGAIN is killing me, but *shrugs* i have my life here and i can't begrudge Him His life there. Though the internet flings DO piss me off. Okay, enough of that much.
Thats about all with me. Me and Sam got into a HUGE fight last week and have not spoken in about 6 days. My stance is if we are going to be "friends" and work on things as they come, i see no reason to put the divorse off. He is still fighting it. Long story short, screaming argument on both ends of the phone, dirst i was NOT expecting him to shovel came flying out of no where and in my stunned silence trying to process what he just said, he hung up on me. History was, we would hang up on each other and then one of us would cal back and it would go on and on like that.....well i don't have time for that mess. About 12 hours later i got a text message on my cell asking me why i had not called back yet. i still havn't. Oh well, i just want him to sign the damn papers and be done with it. i don't know why this is hanging on YEARS after we broke up. He is as bad as "Him" in PA thinking he can always run back to me in between girls or something. Yes, i carried alot of guilt as our marriage breaking up was soooooooo my fault. Well, not all of it, but a good enough portion over fair that i have felt bad for years. Well, i go to sleep now (yes, still drugged on my ami-trypto-best-friend) but i go to sleep without guilt. i have more than made up for what i had done. Bah, in any case, i am tired of seeing his name and i filed papers for a name change the same time i filed to have him served AGAIN with divorse papers but this time in Utah. Kells/Liri had a good point on the phone the other day when she was talking about the line, "till death do you part". It looks like me and Sam are never going to get divorsed and knowing my luck, even after i die he will want to be buried on top of me. Argh!
getting the eye from the teacher, time to put my nose to the grindestone.
ps.....to my snuggly bug kaotic from ambi, i missed you and love you much too hun. You know where to find me now *winx*
okay, so first off, i totally aced midterms last week. Nothing more to say about that other than i am only bald on one side of my head from pulling my hair out in worry. Oh yeah, and for those who know this part, Single White Female has been put a stop to. Whew! *wiping the sweat from my head*
was wondering if i should be putting this public or not, but what the hell. i have no secrets and though i will respect a certain someOne's request to be shush about things to His new...erm...pet i am going to leave this public anyways. Again. ya'll who know, KNOW what the deal is. Bobby flew into BWI friday morning/afternoon and i arrived in Philly saturday morning.
Thanks to tracy/lilN for keeping an ear out for Bobby until i got there, unfortunately since i missed that day for the operation and it was midterm week i wasn't able to go with him on friday and he didn't want to wait until saturday. Things were handled for him, and "things" were handled for me. i will be the first to admit that it felt wonderful being back in His arms and that to bite my tongue while he plays AGAIN is killing me, but *shrugs* i have my life here and i can't begrudge Him His life there. Though the internet flings DO piss me off. Okay, enough of that much.
Thats about all with me. Me and Sam got into a HUGE fight last week and have not spoken in about 6 days. My stance is if we are going to be "friends" and work on things as they come, i see no reason to put the divorse off. He is still fighting it. Long story short, screaming argument on both ends of the phone, dirst i was NOT expecting him to shovel came flying out of no where and in my stunned silence trying to process what he just said, he hung up on me. History was, we would hang up on each other and then one of us would cal back and it would go on and on like that.....well i don't have time for that mess. About 12 hours later i got a text message on my cell asking me why i had not called back yet. i still havn't. Oh well, i just want him to sign the damn papers and be done with it. i don't know why this is hanging on YEARS after we broke up. He is as bad as "Him" in PA thinking he can always run back to me in between girls or something. Yes, i carried alot of guilt as our marriage breaking up was soooooooo my fault. Well, not all of it, but a good enough portion over fair that i have felt bad for years. Well, i go to sleep now (yes, still drugged on my ami-trypto-best-friend) but i go to sleep without guilt. i have more than made up for what i had done. Bah, in any case, i am tired of seeing his name and i filed papers for a name change the same time i filed to have him served AGAIN with divorse papers but this time in Utah. Kells/Liri had a good point on the phone the other day when she was talking about the line, "till death do you part". It looks like me and Sam are never going to get divorsed and knowing my luck, even after i die he will want to be buried on top of me. Argh!
getting the eye from the teacher, time to put my nose to the grindestone.
ps.....to my snuggly bug kaotic from ambi, i missed you and love you much too hun. You know where to find me now *winx*