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soooooo, its been a week or so since i last updated. School is going fine for all of us, my classes right now are super easy to the point where i am bored out of my skull, but i know that i will be challanged later on.
surgery is tommorrow. we had a bit of a situation yesterday at my pre-op where they thought that they were going to have to admit me yesterday, but things worked out and i will be there tommorrow morning. Things have changed slightly because of this, as opposed to the in and out in a couple hours they are defintely keeping me thurseday night and friday, the weekend stay will be determined on how things are looking friday evening. That sucks muchly. The good thing about it is that if they had kept me yesterday, instead of it being laproscopic, it would have been a regualar nasty abdominal incision. And frankly, i am not too proud to say that i am vain in the fact that i don't want a scar like that cutting my body in half in the midsection. Ew. In any case, i don't have the room number but if anyone wants to call or whatever, you can just call the main number at Central Valley Hospital in Hanford and they can transfer you to my room. i am first on the table at 6 am and should be settled in my room by 11 i think.
*ponders* Sam wasn't able to be here. The little road bump i mentioned last week is in effect. He is having problems with his truck (and as a result his business because of it) and is having a difficult time getting things fixed as they are supposed to be. Not his fault at all, but when he needed 6000 miles in one week and he is in the yard for 5 days waiting for his breaks to be fixed.....well you can see the problem. Needless to say, he has been grumpy and distracted the past 2 weeks and that on top of my sugery and school we decided to slow things down a bit. He is upset as he says he is not getting the time back here with me that he needs and wants and says it hurts too much when i "am being sweet" (His words, isn't that nice?) and he is on the east coast. He was almost crying and got all mushy when we talked about this, but i know what he means, i feel the same way. That and the fact that with his partner he is never alone so we can't even have ~phone time~ if you know what i mean. i feel the same way, and i will be the first to admit that i was more than a little annoyed that he has been away so much. But the differance with me and him on this subject is that i am used to it and expected it, he had not. Anyways, good for now, that is what i am going to keep telling myself and keep doing what i am doing. We are still not going to see other people or anything like that, just slow things down between us US. Too easy it was to fall back in the old positive patterns with him, and i can't speak for him but i want to do whatever i can to not fall back into the old BAD patterns with him either. Just as i said, small venting here.......i wish he was HERE as we expected and not Washington today, but i will never let him know how much that bothers me because i know he couldn't do anything about it and i know that if i show i am upset or dissapointed that he will be kicking himself in the butt worrying himself about it more than me. And he needs to concentrate on getting that stupid truck in order the correct way for right now. It worries me to death with the regulator not being put on and the first problems with the brakes among other things. Besides, i don't know who was more worried last night, me or him. And seeing as how he reacted from the little hiccup yesterday at the hospital, i don't think he would be much help to me. i do tend to forget that hospitals effects people differently.
wow, longish rant. Well, i am going to head out. i just got off school and am a bit hungry andf i only have a couple more hours until i have to stop all eating and drinking.
wish me luck
surgery is tommorrow. we had a bit of a situation yesterday at my pre-op where they thought that they were going to have to admit me yesterday, but things worked out and i will be there tommorrow morning. Things have changed slightly because of this, as opposed to the in and out in a couple hours they are defintely keeping me thurseday night and friday, the weekend stay will be determined on how things are looking friday evening. That sucks muchly. The good thing about it is that if they had kept me yesterday, instead of it being laproscopic, it would have been a regualar nasty abdominal incision. And frankly, i am not too proud to say that i am vain in the fact that i don't want a scar like that cutting my body in half in the midsection. Ew. In any case, i don't have the room number but if anyone wants to call or whatever, you can just call the main number at Central Valley Hospital in Hanford and they can transfer you to my room. i am first on the table at 6 am and should be settled in my room by 11 i think.
*ponders* Sam wasn't able to be here. The little road bump i mentioned last week is in effect. He is having problems with his truck (and as a result his business because of it) and is having a difficult time getting things fixed as they are supposed to be. Not his fault at all, but when he needed 6000 miles in one week and he is in the yard for 5 days waiting for his breaks to be fixed.....well you can see the problem. Needless to say, he has been grumpy and distracted the past 2 weeks and that on top of my sugery and school we decided to slow things down a bit. He is upset as he says he is not getting the time back here with me that he needs and wants and says it hurts too much when i "am being sweet" (His words, isn't that nice?) and he is on the east coast. He was almost crying and got all mushy when we talked about this, but i know what he means, i feel the same way. That and the fact that with his partner he is never alone so we can't even have ~phone time~ if you know what i mean. i feel the same way, and i will be the first to admit that i was more than a little annoyed that he has been away so much. But the differance with me and him on this subject is that i am used to it and expected it, he had not. Anyways, good for now, that is what i am going to keep telling myself and keep doing what i am doing. We are still not going to see other people or anything like that, just slow things down between us US. Too easy it was to fall back in the old positive patterns with him, and i can't speak for him but i want to do whatever i can to not fall back into the old BAD patterns with him either. Just as i said, small venting here.......i wish he was HERE as we expected and not Washington today, but i will never let him know how much that bothers me because i know he couldn't do anything about it and i know that if i show i am upset or dissapointed that he will be kicking himself in the butt worrying himself about it more than me. And he needs to concentrate on getting that stupid truck in order the correct way for right now. It worries me to death with the regulator not being put on and the first problems with the brakes among other things. Besides, i don't know who was more worried last night, me or him. And seeing as how he reacted from the little hiccup yesterday at the hospital, i don't think he would be much help to me. i do tend to forget that hospitals effects people differently.
wow, longish rant. Well, i am going to head out. i just got off school and am a bit hungry andf i only have a couple more hours until i have to stop all eating and drinking.
wish me luck