Back to school
Well I haven't posted since the break, so here we go. I think the break really helped me sort things out within myself. I don't feel mad anymore, well I haven't felt mad... there's still time. But that's a good sign I guess. We talk everyday, friends... What I wouldn't give to have her again. Anything, just take it... anything. But I guess if It can't be that way, I'll settle for friends. It's hard to hold back, I don't want to hold back... but I have too. No choice. Anything!!! To have it like it was... anything. *looks up to the sky* "I'm still waiting for my break... anytime now... please..." Well anyways I think I'm at peace with what happened. I still wish things could be different. Oh how I wish. So many wishes I have, no one to grant them. I'm still feeling crappy, I'm not going to lie. Although I might not show it. I try to hide it, I'm doing a great so far. I don't do it for myself, I do it for others. This my sound selfish but When is it going to be my time!!! When will my break come!!! I can't hold much in any longer. Why can't it be like before? I know it's over, but I still have feeling for her. I know I should move on, but it's hard. I see her at school and can't help but smile. She has that kind of power over me. I wish I had the same effect on her... there I go again wishing... but you take what you get... and I guess I'm happy with friendship. Prom is coming up really soon, we're going together. I wanna make it a great night, one to remember. Dinner, the works. I just think I sould enjoy myslef no matter what. I only get one prom.