Why the swordsman is grieving
Um. So. I promised explanations about what's been upsetting me the last few days... I've told a few people, but, um... hopefully this is the last time I'll have to rip this bandaid off...
So.
I wanna get this over with before I go to Mum's tomorrow and have to... yeah. That bit later.
So. Boxing Day. I'm planning a post about several different things, but then Red says she wants to go get fabric for a cosplay, so we go into town, and soon as we get back, my brother-in-law calls, says we have to go over to my mum's right then. So we go, and we're packing ourselves all the way there, cos he didn't say what happened or who to.
So we get there, and I'm still hoping that maybe nothing's actually wrong, that the urgency's coming from something else, but we walk into the kitchen and everyone's there and I know immediately something really is wrong, and it's my brother-in-law who says it.
Back up a bit. My brother came home again just a few weeks ago. He's been having health problems for years, all kinds of shit that I really don't want to go into now, and he came home cos they were getting bad again, and really, we were surprised sometimes that he made it this long.
So. Yeah. A few of you know, the rest of you can probably guess what's coming now.
My brother's dead. Heart attack.
Which is ironic, cos that was the one part of him we thought there wasn't anything wrong with.
It was scary seeing his father cry...
I've been keeping it back to try not to tread on people's Christmases and birthdays and such, but I need to make this post sometime, and you've waited long enough to know.
Sorry for worrying you guys the past few days. I'm okay at the moment... still waiting to see if I'm gonna crack again.
And, um, yeah. Some of the other posts I was gonna make are still coming. I'm still gonna make my post on the current Naruto stuff, and I'm gonna redo the music meme that's going around and post both versions. (I think the first one was corrupted. I did it on Christmas Day and a couple of the answers are... well, you'll see.)
So. Yeah. Funeral's Wednesday morning. Meeting tomorrow to plan stuff for it... I'm wondering how well I'll hold up through that. Wish me luck...
So.
I wanna get this over with before I go to Mum's tomorrow and have to... yeah. That bit later.
So. Boxing Day. I'm planning a post about several different things, but then Red says she wants to go get fabric for a cosplay, so we go into town, and soon as we get back, my brother-in-law calls, says we have to go over to my mum's right then. So we go, and we're packing ourselves all the way there, cos he didn't say what happened or who to.
So we get there, and I'm still hoping that maybe nothing's actually wrong, that the urgency's coming from something else, but we walk into the kitchen and everyone's there and I know immediately something really is wrong, and it's my brother-in-law who says it.
Back up a bit. My brother came home again just a few weeks ago. He's been having health problems for years, all kinds of shit that I really don't want to go into now, and he came home cos they were getting bad again, and really, we were surprised sometimes that he made it this long.
So. Yeah. A few of you know, the rest of you can probably guess what's coming now.
My brother's dead. Heart attack.
Which is ironic, cos that was the one part of him we thought there wasn't anything wrong with.
It was scary seeing his father cry...
I've been keeping it back to try not to tread on people's Christmases and birthdays and such, but I need to make this post sometime, and you've waited long enough to know.
Sorry for worrying you guys the past few days. I'm okay at the moment... still waiting to see if I'm gonna crack again.
And, um, yeah. Some of the other posts I was gonna make are still coming. I'm still gonna make my post on the current Naruto stuff, and I'm gonna redo the music meme that's going around and post both versions. (I think the first one was corrupted. I did it on Christmas Day and a couple of the answers are... well, you'll see.)
So. Yeah. Funeral's Wednesday morning. Meeting tomorrow to plan stuff for it... I'm wondering how well I'll hold up through that. Wish me luck...