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So I went from fasting to eating way too damn much in an attempt to reverse the extreame fatigue/fainting feeling that came on suddenly while fasting...
Except it's not reversed and now I feel like shit and am pissed at myself.
Every day I contemplate at least once ripping out my stomach just so I can do away with food entirely, thankfully I haven't SERIOUSLY considered it as that would be stupid...and bloody...and probably painful.
heh, fasting, such a pretty little term for starving. I'd rather die hungry then eat another bloody bite of worthless food. Stupid body, wanting food and sugars. Stupid brain for giving into stupid body.
...I miss my friends
Except it's not reversed and now I feel like shit and am pissed at myself.
Every day I contemplate at least once ripping out my stomach just so I can do away with food entirely, thankfully I haven't SERIOUSLY considered it as that would be stupid...and bloody...and probably painful.
heh, fasting, such a pretty little term for starving. I'd rather die hungry then eat another bloody bite of worthless food. Stupid body, wanting food and sugars. Stupid brain for giving into stupid body.
...I miss my friends