God Bless The Child...
Thats it. I've decided, with the help and wings from a few helpful little angels, that I will fight and claw my way back into something better. I am tired of my patterns, fear, and ridiculous negative behavior.
The first step..Talking to someone who knows..and doesn't feel as if I blame them for how I feel.
Second step..I signed us up for a fitness membership at Lifetime fitness. THEY HAVE WATERSLIDES and indoor pools..and YOGA FOR FREE FOR ME, and a resteraunt a SPA, 3 FLOORS OF FUN., flatscreen t.v.s.. a childcare ROMPER RO0OM with his own basketball/ball gymnasium, a crawling tunnel structure..FLATSCREEN COMPUTERS TO PLAY ON...and all sorts ofwonderous things for him to do while we get healthy together..Its partially John's Birthday gift.. The gift of health for all of us..and a little time to ourselves..Did I mention Saunas, whirlpools.and Hottubs? Yes..Its true...THEY EVEN HAVE HAIRDRYERS READY for girls in the locker room..Oh my.Its almost like a little piece of heaven here on earth..
Third step, Not screwing this one up..Giving it my 100% so that I can save myself..and save my family.
Fourth step, Being thankful for another chance to get it right before I did anything that was permanant.
Amen.
The first step..Talking to someone who knows..and doesn't feel as if I blame them for how I feel.
Second step..I signed us up for a fitness membership at Lifetime fitness. THEY HAVE WATERSLIDES and indoor pools..and YOGA FOR FREE FOR ME, and a resteraunt a SPA, 3 FLOORS OF FUN., flatscreen t.v.s.. a childcare ROMPER RO0OM with his own basketball/ball gymnasium, a crawling tunnel structure..FLATSCREEN COMPUTERS TO PLAY ON...and all sorts ofwonderous things for him to do while we get healthy together..Its partially John's Birthday gift.. The gift of health for all of us..and a little time to ourselves..Did I mention Saunas, whirlpools.and Hottubs? Yes..Its true...THEY EVEN HAVE HAIRDRYERS READY for girls in the locker room..Oh my.Its almost like a little piece of heaven here on earth..
Third step, Not screwing this one up..Giving it my 100% so that I can save myself..and save my family.
Fourth step, Being thankful for another chance to get it right before I did anything that was permanant.
Amen.