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So yeah, i've been real busy with stuff lately. I met someone, she's really really cool, it's amazing how much we have in common, it's almost scary. So thus you'd think i'm taken again right? well ya see, after this whole ordeal that caused and still causes me mass confusion and frustration, I'm not sure if i really want a girlfriend right now. i mean, i'm 19, i'm single for the first time in 2 years (roughly) and to tell ya the truth, i'm starting to enjoy being single. no, i'm not going around and screwing anything that moves, i'm just enjoying meeting people and getting to know them and stuff ya know?
it's kinda like this: ya know when you go shopping for clothes, and you stop in the first store you see and find something you really like? you want to buy it, but if you do then you will be out of money, so you can't buy something else from another place... so do you buy the first thing you see that you like or keep shopping around for other options before making a final decision? Believe it or not, i really would prefer to shop right now i think, then if i can't find something better, return to the first thing i saw ya know? she is really a great girl, it's not like there's anything wrong with her, but what if i do find something better?
well that's my plan anyway...thank God school's out, i failed German, but ya live and ya learn ya know? it was really an interesting semester, i let my personal life get way too much into my school life, and that hurt me, but it's not like a i failed every class...just German. Despite the fact i'm transfering to UB, i'm still glad i went to Canisius... i really learned alot about myself, both in the educational and emotional sense. I wish it could've had a happier ending to the whole thing, especially with Maria, but hey, life's funny sometimes and the past is now behind me. doesn't matter anymore what happened, it's over, and the best part is... now i know that i am not an asshole, i am not a lier, and i am not a bad person. There are always two sides to a coin, just like there are always other things the other person could've done as well to avoid a problem. What happened is just as much her fault as it is mine, it's just too bad i see it that way and she doesn't, or she certainly doesn't seem like she does. bottom line here folks, i can live with what happened because basically, i have a true handle on things now, and i know what there is to know, and i know what i should and shouldn't have done, and on the flip side i know what she should've and shouldn't have done as well. So we move on. it's just too bad she has to go and point the finger and run away from all this, but hey that's her choice, maybe some day she'll come around, but otherwise i say HELLO SUMMER!!! a have a new job, a new hockey team, some new friends added to my original ones, and a fresh start. who knows what will happen...all i know is that i'm very exciuted to find out what's next.
it's kinda like this: ya know when you go shopping for clothes, and you stop in the first store you see and find something you really like? you want to buy it, but if you do then you will be out of money, so you can't buy something else from another place... so do you buy the first thing you see that you like or keep shopping around for other options before making a final decision? Believe it or not, i really would prefer to shop right now i think, then if i can't find something better, return to the first thing i saw ya know? she is really a great girl, it's not like there's anything wrong with her, but what if i do find something better?
well that's my plan anyway...thank God school's out, i failed German, but ya live and ya learn ya know? it was really an interesting semester, i let my personal life get way too much into my school life, and that hurt me, but it's not like a i failed every class...just German. Despite the fact i'm transfering to UB, i'm still glad i went to Canisius... i really learned alot about myself, both in the educational and emotional sense. I wish it could've had a happier ending to the whole thing, especially with Maria, but hey, life's funny sometimes and the past is now behind me. doesn't matter anymore what happened, it's over, and the best part is... now i know that i am not an asshole, i am not a lier, and i am not a bad person. There are always two sides to a coin, just like there are always other things the other person could've done as well to avoid a problem. What happened is just as much her fault as it is mine, it's just too bad i see it that way and she doesn't, or she certainly doesn't seem like she does. bottom line here folks, i can live with what happened because basically, i have a true handle on things now, and i know what there is to know, and i know what i should and shouldn't have done, and on the flip side i know what she should've and shouldn't have done as well. So we move on. it's just too bad she has to go and point the finger and run away from all this, but hey that's her choice, maybe some day she'll come around, but otherwise i say HELLO SUMMER!!! a have a new job, a new hockey team, some new friends added to my original ones, and a fresh start. who knows what will happen...all i know is that i'm very exciuted to find out what's next.