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so i'm on my own for the first time in rougly 2 years. it's actually not that bad of a feeling to be honast. yeah, i'm pretty down about the whole Maria thing, i really did and still do like her and i really thought we could have had something great. but seeing that she won't even answer my e-mails, i think it's safe to say that it's all over. part of me is so very sad, and sometimes i really have a tough time dealing with it.. .but as each day goes by, the realization that i am once again free sets in and the sadness goes away. so the question i ask is, "now what?" what is it i want to do now? i didn't have a back up plan. i have no one right now to chase after, which is kinda wierd for me. but it's kinda cool because now i can literally start over with a clean slate and meet girls and just have some fun.
now comes the question of how i'm going to meet girls and stuff. i don't know if i have the confidence to go up to a girl and flat out flirt...i've had that nagging voice in my head telling me i have a girlfriend for so long i've forgotten how to flirt. is that wierd? i have no clue as to what i'm gonna do now (aside from trying to have a shit load of fun for once). any suggestions?
so i'm on my own for the first time in rougly 2 years. it's actually not that bad of a feeling to be honast. yeah, i'm pretty down about the whole Maria thing, i really did and still do like her and i really thought we could have had something great. but seeing that she won't even answer my e-mails, i think it's safe to say that it's all over. part of me is so very sad, and sometimes i really have a tough time dealing with it.. .but as each day goes by, the realization that i am once again free sets in and the sadness goes away. so the question i ask is, "now what?" what is it i want to do now? i didn't have a back up plan. i have no one right now to chase after, which is kinda wierd for me. but it's kinda cool because now i can literally start over with a clean slate and meet girls and just have some fun.
now comes the question of how i'm going to meet girls and stuff. i don't know if i have the confidence to go up to a girl and flat out flirt...i've had that nagging voice in my head telling me i have a girlfriend for so long i've forgotten how to flirt. is that wierd? i have no clue as to what i'm gonna do now (aside from trying to have a shit load of fun for once). any suggestions?