Just updating as always....
So i leave for Florida in 5 and a half days or so. I'm a little nervous because i'm worried about money... i don't know if i'm gonna have but $160 or so. Its been a tough month trying to get my unemployment going and stuff and money has just sucked ass. I'm sure it will all work out and my mom might spot me a few dollars, i'm just worried that i'll run out of money quick. Its times like these i really do miss my job, when my paychecks averaged about $700 every two weeks. All i hope for is to have a great time and have no worries. That's why i'm going alone and not with Renee or anyone else, just to get away from everyone I know here and reset myself. Plus It's so totally cool of steve to let me stay at his place and stuff. That saves me so much money.
I got a lot off my chest last week with Nicole who will most likely read this and that's fine. I had this whole trust issue thing that dated back to when we were dating like, oh, a year and a half, 2 years ago. Truth is I've really missed her, she was always fun to hang out with and I enjoyed her company. She's different from my other friends, and that's refreshing. So i got a lot settled with her which makes me feel so much more comfortable. I hope we hang out sometime soon.
This week is going to be a serious fuckin work out session. I gotta tone myself up a little before i get there. Plan is to drop 5-10 punds this week playing hockey and lifting, and with the help of diet pills (don't worry, effedra free). It's not like i'm looking horrible, that's not the case, shit i look the same as i have for a long time now. Just want to shed a few before i go down to a place where there's sun and warmth. (ie go out of hibernation winter mode lol).
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The Bills suck, i hate them, their coaching is terrible, and i can't stand watching them because i know what they are going to do before they even do it, and that's not right. Although they are at .500, the Sabres at least are putting up a hell of a fight and have a good shot at making a playoff run.
My Dad's B-day was this past weekend. I got him a nice bottle of Polo Blue (cologne). Its new and it actually smells very nice, shit i would wear it. I got his name engraved on it for free, and $40 i had a smiling Dad, which is good, especially seeing he is IMPOSSIBLE to shop for. My dad and I have been kinda drifting apart lately. He's really big into church and i am not, and if you wonder what my views on religion are, just read my past posts fropm, oh, years ago... they are in my archive on this here live journal. My views haven't changed much. Anyway, as a result it has pulled my dad away from family a bit, until recently. I think he's starting to realize that although we don't agree with his views, we still are his children and we do love him. So that's been a positive, because i miss my Dad, and would like to have him back.
One last thing. Found out last week my girlfriend, Renee, is going to pursue graduate work in psychology out of state. She's going for a psy-D which, to make it simple enough, means she'll be a doctor and make lots of money because she will not be some counselor in a school... she'll be at a clinic or a hospital or her own firm dealing with people who are really messed up and have legitimate clinical problems. I totally support her, she's so god damn smart and i have a feeling she could be great. Ok, so that's positive, so where's the negative? She will be away at school for 5-6 years. yeah. It sucks. Again, i totally 100% support her because this is the rest of her life and i refuse to try and convince her to stay here and be educated in something that she does not want simply because i want her to stay. Truth is I probably won't be in Buffalo in another 2-3 years anyway... there's no jobs here for me and I want to make some decent money. It just puts us in an awkward position of being without eachother for a very long period of time. I won't lie, I can see myself marrying Renee someday. She's a great girl who i love very much. She's always there for me when i really need her and can put up with my shit like no other. It's just going to be hard to work this. She leaves this coming August, school TBA. If everything works out, which I actually am confident it will ultimately, then great. I think the only way it can though is if we have a lot of patience with eachother and be very forgiving at times. This whole thing is on my mind though, as tuff as it is. Just have to keep on truckin' and just deal. simple as that. For the record don't worry, i won't mope and bitch and whine when she does go, i won't dedicate my fucking AIM profile or this whole thing to it, its something i will just be thinking about and deal with.
Anyway i'm done. Thanks for reading.
I got a lot off my chest last week with Nicole who will most likely read this and that's fine. I had this whole trust issue thing that dated back to when we were dating like, oh, a year and a half, 2 years ago. Truth is I've really missed her, she was always fun to hang out with and I enjoyed her company. She's different from my other friends, and that's refreshing. So i got a lot settled with her which makes me feel so much more comfortable. I hope we hang out sometime soon.
This week is going to be a serious fuckin work out session. I gotta tone myself up a little before i get there. Plan is to drop 5-10 punds this week playing hockey and lifting, and with the help of diet pills (don't worry, effedra free). It's not like i'm looking horrible, that's not the case, shit i look the same as i have for a long time now. Just want to shed a few before i go down to a place where there's sun and warmth. (ie go out of hibernation winter mode lol).
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The Bills suck, i hate them, their coaching is terrible, and i can't stand watching them because i know what they are going to do before they even do it, and that's not right. Although they are at .500, the Sabres at least are putting up a hell of a fight and have a good shot at making a playoff run.
My Dad's B-day was this past weekend. I got him a nice bottle of Polo Blue (cologne). Its new and it actually smells very nice, shit i would wear it. I got his name engraved on it for free, and $40 i had a smiling Dad, which is good, especially seeing he is IMPOSSIBLE to shop for. My dad and I have been kinda drifting apart lately. He's really big into church and i am not, and if you wonder what my views on religion are, just read my past posts fropm, oh, years ago... they are in my archive on this here live journal. My views haven't changed much. Anyway, as a result it has pulled my dad away from family a bit, until recently. I think he's starting to realize that although we don't agree with his views, we still are his children and we do love him. So that's been a positive, because i miss my Dad, and would like to have him back.
One last thing. Found out last week my girlfriend, Renee, is going to pursue graduate work in psychology out of state. She's going for a psy-D which, to make it simple enough, means she'll be a doctor and make lots of money because she will not be some counselor in a school... she'll be at a clinic or a hospital or her own firm dealing with people who are really messed up and have legitimate clinical problems. I totally support her, she's so god damn smart and i have a feeling she could be great. Ok, so that's positive, so where's the negative? She will be away at school for 5-6 years. yeah. It sucks. Again, i totally 100% support her because this is the rest of her life and i refuse to try and convince her to stay here and be educated in something that she does not want simply because i want her to stay. Truth is I probably won't be in Buffalo in another 2-3 years anyway... there's no jobs here for me and I want to make some decent money. It just puts us in an awkward position of being without eachother for a very long period of time. I won't lie, I can see myself marrying Renee someday. She's a great girl who i love very much. She's always there for me when i really need her and can put up with my shit like no other. It's just going to be hard to work this. She leaves this coming August, school TBA. If everything works out, which I actually am confident it will ultimately, then great. I think the only way it can though is if we have a lot of patience with eachother and be very forgiving at times. This whole thing is on my mind though, as tuff as it is. Just have to keep on truckin' and just deal. simple as that. For the record don't worry, i won't mope and bitch and whine when she does go, i won't dedicate my fucking AIM profile or this whole thing to it, its something i will just be thinking about and deal with.
Anyway i'm done. Thanks for reading.