Venting.....
Has it ever seemed to you that when one bad thing happens it starts this chain reaction?
*looks at the boxes piled in the middle of his living room floor* It's weird being here again. Cindy got pissed at me cause she got to spend time here away from P.J. And I guess she thinks that I won't allow her to stay here. But she is however my sister so yeah I don't think I will do to well on my own right now as it is. So I am thinking of asking her to stay here with me. I don't want to be alone. I know things happen for a reason. But it's hard to face each day not knowing what that reason is. It gives you no sense of closure and you're stuck wondering and searching yourself for the answers. Like where you went wrong or screwed up. I guess I should have paid more attention and then I would have known something was wrong and he wasn't happy. I was just going through some rough shit and now it's made even worse. I have already lost two of the most important things to me. And I don't know exactly how I can jump over this hurdle thats in front of me. I don't even know where to begin. But I have made it on my own before and I guess I will have to suck it up and make it on my own again. I swear there is this steel wall building up around my heart and soon enough it will be so strong that no one will make it through ever again. I think that is the only way that I can handle things and not let them get so out of control. *picks up the box of invitations and sets them beside of him* What can I say about that so close but so fucking far away....*picks them up and throws them scattering them across the room*
Nothing lasts forever and we both know hearts can change
Funny thing is mine never did and I don't think mine ever will.
*clicks update button and walks away*
St. Paul
*looks at the boxes piled in the middle of his living room floor* It's weird being here again. Cindy got pissed at me cause she got to spend time here away from P.J. And I guess she thinks that I won't allow her to stay here. But she is however my sister so yeah I don't think I will do to well on my own right now as it is. So I am thinking of asking her to stay here with me. I don't want to be alone. I know things happen for a reason. But it's hard to face each day not knowing what that reason is. It gives you no sense of closure and you're stuck wondering and searching yourself for the answers. Like where you went wrong or screwed up. I guess I should have paid more attention and then I would have known something was wrong and he wasn't happy. I was just going through some rough shit and now it's made even worse. I have already lost two of the most important things to me. And I don't know exactly how I can jump over this hurdle thats in front of me. I don't even know where to begin. But I have made it on my own before and I guess I will have to suck it up and make it on my own again. I swear there is this steel wall building up around my heart and soon enough it will be so strong that no one will make it through ever again. I think that is the only way that I can handle things and not let them get so out of control. *picks up the box of invitations and sets them beside of him* What can I say about that so close but so fucking far away....*picks them up and throws them scattering them across the room*
Nothing lasts forever and we both know hearts can change
Funny thing is mine never did and I don't think mine ever will.
*clicks update button and walks away*
St. Paul