Maps
It's nice being back at school. Sort of. I miss home. My family, familiar places, people I don't normally see. I guess home is what/whomever you miss the most when you're away from it. I like Boone. The temperature is nice and chilly. There's hundreds of new poeple that could change my life with one word. It just sseems impersonal here. Going from knowing everyone in my class in high school to not knowing anyone in my classes in college is big. I still haven't learned to start conversations with people. They always have to have the first word. Sometimes I think I should just go back. Charlotte wasn't so bad in the first place. Just that crappy hour long drive. I don't regret it though. I'm glad I took a dive into the unforseen. What else can you do? I feel like I've grown wiser, at least by a little bit. Maybe that's the dying brain cells or lack of sleep. I feel now like I'm not as easily fooled. I don't like to take people at their word as quickly as I used to. I got rid of my attachment issues. I feel like I'm back to where I was before highschool. A nearly-lone wolf. I suppose at best I'm almost completely dynamic again. I don't like being predictable. I don't want you to think you know what I'm going to do or say or how I'll react. Or maybe it's just me regressing into the whole "I want to be different" stage. Who knows? But I swear one day I'll be in a perfect position to make my life worthwhile.