Intrigue
There are moments in a mans life when he wants t'believe that divine intervention is what brings ye t'a certain situations, but in reality, the concept is merely curiosity or intrigue. It's fear, or anticipation that makes us experiment with the outcome.
When th'Lord first came t'me, the only thing that went through meh head was 'Thou shall not kill.' How does this work? Th'Lord asks meh to serve the putrid scum of this age t'Him for judgement, which in turn immunes meh from this Commandment? What happens t'meh when I die, do I get into Heaven? I am full of questions, or rather, intrigue.
I want t'believe that if I do as th'Lord asks, that meh, and mah sons will live eternally in happiness, on the other hand, it scares meh t'death that we've been following Satan along blindly, not knowing that it was him that asked us to kill in his name - delivering his sons of darkness to him so they may not repent their sins t'God.
We are still on our mission and will not stop until He tells us t'do so.
When th'Lord first came t'me, the only thing that went through meh head was 'Thou shall not kill.' How does this work? Th'Lord asks meh to serve the putrid scum of this age t'Him for judgement, which in turn immunes meh from this Commandment? What happens t'meh when I die, do I get into Heaven? I am full of questions, or rather, intrigue.
I want t'believe that if I do as th'Lord asks, that meh, and mah sons will live eternally in happiness, on the other hand, it scares meh t'death that we've been following Satan along blindly, not knowing that it was him that asked us to kill in his name - delivering his sons of darkness to him so they may not repent their sins t'God.
We are still on our mission and will not stop until He tells us t'do so.