someday you will die somehow and something's gonna steal your carbon
so the other day i was in the albert heijn (grocery store) by my house and i was listening to music on my headphones and i took them off while the lady was scanning my stuff and i was listening to "turn back time" and totally rocking the cher and all the people around could totally hear it and i think they were laughing at me. it was embarassing, but i love me some cher.
not too much going on. smoking lots of pot, meeting people in coffeeshops. watching my tv shows over and over.
i miss people. everyone is on spring break and i am not, and i am lonely. and michelle's boyfriend is coming tomorrow which, while i'm hella stoked for her, it means that my smoking buddy is going to be busy being romantic and having sex for a week.
i think barbara is worried about me because i don't go out. i do go out, just during the day to meet people. but i'm rarely interested in extended experiences with people, because they either expect something from you or they're douchebags. anyhow, i don't know how to explain for her that it's good for me to be antisocial, that it's what i need to do in order to maintain some sort of desire for communication with the outside world.
seriously though, i spent most of theory class looking at pictures on facebook (sarah stauffer taking a body shot from zac's uberfeminine waist almost made me laugh out loud - dangerous) and i'm bummed. i always feel so left out of the humboldt scene when i'm gone - somehow the fact that i know that nothing much changes makes the fact that i'm missing out even harder. and while i'm stoked about my parents coming, all i can think about right now is all the work i have to do and all the time i have to kill and the fact that i still have six and a half weeks here. that's a pretty long fucking time.
ok, i've got to decide whether or not to skip out on this evaluation session we have next. i think i might...it's gorgeous out. but we have to come back here at 8 for a reading thing, so balls.
PS the new modest mouse album is awesome. kate, if you're looking for sample songs try "missed the boat" or "little motel".
not too much going on. smoking lots of pot, meeting people in coffeeshops. watching my tv shows over and over.
i miss people. everyone is on spring break and i am not, and i am lonely. and michelle's boyfriend is coming tomorrow which, while i'm hella stoked for her, it means that my smoking buddy is going to be busy being romantic and having sex for a week.
i think barbara is worried about me because i don't go out. i do go out, just during the day to meet people. but i'm rarely interested in extended experiences with people, because they either expect something from you or they're douchebags. anyhow, i don't know how to explain for her that it's good for me to be antisocial, that it's what i need to do in order to maintain some sort of desire for communication with the outside world.
seriously though, i spent most of theory class looking at pictures on facebook (sarah stauffer taking a body shot from zac's uberfeminine waist almost made me laugh out loud - dangerous) and i'm bummed. i always feel so left out of the humboldt scene when i'm gone - somehow the fact that i know that nothing much changes makes the fact that i'm missing out even harder. and while i'm stoked about my parents coming, all i can think about right now is all the work i have to do and all the time i have to kill and the fact that i still have six and a half weeks here. that's a pretty long fucking time.
ok, i've got to decide whether or not to skip out on this evaluation session we have next. i think i might...it's gorgeous out. but we have to come back here at 8 for a reading thing, so balls.
PS the new modest mouse album is awesome. kate, if you're looking for sample songs try "missed the boat" or "little motel".