you see what a monkey does, stay up your fucking tree...

[sainta_maria]

Its hard to describe how i feel right now.
I'm feeling a mix of things
Confused mostly.
I'm all around alright,
but there's still a twinge in my stomach,
Something isn't correct.
I dont understand what I'm doing wrong.
and I dont know how to approach this situation
because I feel as though it's a repetative argument
and I keep fucking up.
and I dont feel as though I can be myself.
and that I have to walk on eggshells
and constantly worry.
I'm obviously... whatever.
I'm a bad person.
and I guess that's that.

I really miss Terri right now.
I think I'm going to call her soon,
perhaps after her first couple of days of classes.
I hope she's doing well.
I have a lot of faith in her,
she's going to be everything that she ever wanted.
and more.
I really miss her.
I love my funny best friend.