580: Me? Confident?
I've got to say that I've been flying high lately.
It used to be that I'd walk in a room, and people would say 'hey,' and I'd be meek as all hell acknowledging people. Or, I'd just be outrageous.
Neither of those things are healthy, they created a negative frame in which people saw me in. I was either withdrawn, or extremely exuberant. In any case, I was instable.
These days, I walk into a room, and I beam with confidence. People still notice me, but my head is tilted a little higher, and the confidence that I'm brimming with makes me smile. People notice me for the good that's within me, and I'd say that's pretty dope.
I like that confidence.
I think it comes from knowing who my friends are, and knowing that I've got their support, and that they really care about my happiness the same way I care about theirs. There's no selfishness in these relationships, and I really like that things are that way.
That being said, knowing who my friends are, finding a girlfriend has really taken a nose-dive in my priorities. Lord knows it used to be my highest priority...but it just doesn't seem that important. I'm open to having my mind changed and all...but for now, my mind-set is just based on having as much fun as possible.
The weirdest thing is, I think that I've physically changed very little. I'm no slouch, but I'm still like a teapot: short and stout. In spite of my physical diminutiveness, I've felt more attractive these days. It's the confidence.
I'm not confident because I'm attractive.
I'm attractive because I'm confident.
Oh, the sweet secret of my success.
Last week's new skill: Palmistry (Palm reading).
This week's new skill: Perfecting my massage.
It used to be that I'd walk in a room, and people would say 'hey,' and I'd be meek as all hell acknowledging people. Or, I'd just be outrageous.
Neither of those things are healthy, they created a negative frame in which people saw me in. I was either withdrawn, or extremely exuberant. In any case, I was instable.
These days, I walk into a room, and I beam with confidence. People still notice me, but my head is tilted a little higher, and the confidence that I'm brimming with makes me smile. People notice me for the good that's within me, and I'd say that's pretty dope.
I like that confidence.
I think it comes from knowing who my friends are, and knowing that I've got their support, and that they really care about my happiness the same way I care about theirs. There's no selfishness in these relationships, and I really like that things are that way.
That being said, knowing who my friends are, finding a girlfriend has really taken a nose-dive in my priorities. Lord knows it used to be my highest priority...but it just doesn't seem that important. I'm open to having my mind changed and all...but for now, my mind-set is just based on having as much fun as possible.
The weirdest thing is, I think that I've physically changed very little. I'm no slouch, but I'm still like a teapot: short and stout. In spite of my physical diminutiveness, I've felt more attractive these days. It's the confidence.
I'm not confident because I'm attractive.
I'm attractive because I'm confident.
Oh, the sweet secret of my success.
Last week's new skill: Palmistry (Palm reading).
This week's new skill: Perfecting my massage.