572: What I really want.
All the blogs written everywhere else (MySpace, Facebook), all tell me this simple fact: I'm just looking for stability.
Not just with relationships with other people, but mainly in my relationship with myself.
I'm busy pining over this dream that no longer exists, trying to find something like the only stable relationship I had (and subsequently threw away). It's old, it's a stale memory that I can't have back, so why am I chasing it?
Still, there was a time when things were more stable, and I didn't complicate everything, and when I was less complicated.
If things just became stable for me, I think I could be happy, but I really don't know for sure...but stability would be a step.
Not just with relationships with other people, but mainly in my relationship with myself.
I'm busy pining over this dream that no longer exists, trying to find something like the only stable relationship I had (and subsequently threw away). It's old, it's a stale memory that I can't have back, so why am I chasing it?
Still, there was a time when things were more stable, and I didn't complicate everything, and when I was less complicated.
If things just became stable for me, I think I could be happy, but I really don't know for sure...but stability would be a step.