so did i tell you about this?

[sailorska81]

I have a job. i've been working for 5 shifts so far and i'm working all week. and they pay me too. suprising for NYC. But i feel so much better now about everything else knowing i will make money almost every day bartending. I turned down the audition because timing was very important to this new job i just got. and its a permanent job rather than a week long fling at money. So the pain from my confusion with ken is livable because i have a job. i don't know what i'm going to do about ken. He's a bit restless for me. I haven't made up my mind but i do like him so. If he knew what was good for me he'd take me to the batcave this saturday. My goth clothes are getting dusty and i'm feeling skinnier so i really want to show them off when i look good. :)

I had a hole in my soul i was losing control
and i needed a goal that's when i found him

.....jesus song from the candie/troll project of um...98 i think.