Today was not a good day
For the most part, day to day is not really a problem for me. Sometimes though, I dwell on the fact that my life really is dull. I've let myself get cornered and there's no way out, so I can't see that there's anything better in store than what I'm already doing.
So today I broke at work again. I was irritated with my coworkers and it was just one of those days that my mood suddenly dipped into a pretty dark depression. The biggest problem was that it came to so many people's attention, which I feel REALLY bad about now. I hate making people worry.
(My mood had been better. But now it's dipped again. This really sucks.)
So work was at least 3 hours of pulling myself together, and the rest of the time hoping desperately not to fall apart again. It was particularly bad today. When break time rolled around I hoped for a tiny bit of privacy at my desk, but it just wasn't to be. I really try to hide my crying, but who knows how many people actually saw it? I got to a point where I didn't particularly care. I wanted to hide in a box, and instead I came to work.
I am not managing this at all.
In non-emotional stuff, there was a letter on the e-memo board to the people trying to start a union. It seems there's been complaints of employees' drawers being invaded, employees being harassed and getting pictures taken outside work. WOW. This organization is pretty terrible. Every new action of theirs really just convinces me I want nothing to do with them. It's bad enough that they're starting this stuff where I work, but being accosted by people with flyers every time they have a meeting is starting to get really annoying. I guess I should be glad they haven't found my facebook. >:(
One of the girls in our group quit today. Abruptly. It didn't seem planned, but who knows? she's part of the group of people in our group that seem to be constantly having trouble with SOMEONE. You probably know the type. Opinionated as hell, and can't stand people that are too much the same. (if that makes sense. I can try to explain it out later.)
I thought enough ahead to realize that'd make Captain Toolbox my helper on file movement, so I took steps to have the schedule changed up. I don't ever want to work with him if it can be avoided. Fortunately, my boss doesn't have a problem with that. (and he shouldn't. I'm a consistently good worker.)
So after worked, I indulged in some retail therapy. Bought a few manga, a book from the Oatmeal, and assorted chips and cookies. I should be set for tonight. :3
Plus there's Planet Comicon tomorrow. I'm pretty hyped to possibly meet Randy Milholland. I hope I can remember to maybe ask for a sketch of Vanessa, who's my current favorite character in Something Positive. ^_^ We'll see how it goes. I'll probably get intimidated and not say much, like normal. I'm hoping if it's a semi-small venue that maybe it won't be such a problem for me.
So today I broke at work again. I was irritated with my coworkers and it was just one of those days that my mood suddenly dipped into a pretty dark depression. The biggest problem was that it came to so many people's attention, which I feel REALLY bad about now. I hate making people worry.
(My mood had been better. But now it's dipped again. This really sucks.)
So work was at least 3 hours of pulling myself together, and the rest of the time hoping desperately not to fall apart again. It was particularly bad today. When break time rolled around I hoped for a tiny bit of privacy at my desk, but it just wasn't to be. I really try to hide my crying, but who knows how many people actually saw it? I got to a point where I didn't particularly care. I wanted to hide in a box, and instead I came to work.
I am not managing this at all.
In non-emotional stuff, there was a letter on the e-memo board to the people trying to start a union. It seems there's been complaints of employees' drawers being invaded, employees being harassed and getting pictures taken outside work. WOW. This organization is pretty terrible. Every new action of theirs really just convinces me I want nothing to do with them. It's bad enough that they're starting this stuff where I work, but being accosted by people with flyers every time they have a meeting is starting to get really annoying. I guess I should be glad they haven't found my facebook. >:(
One of the girls in our group quit today. Abruptly. It didn't seem planned, but who knows? she's part of the group of people in our group that seem to be constantly having trouble with SOMEONE. You probably know the type. Opinionated as hell, and can't stand people that are too much the same. (if that makes sense. I can try to explain it out later.)
I thought enough ahead to realize that'd make Captain Toolbox my helper on file movement, so I took steps to have the schedule changed up. I don't ever want to work with him if it can be avoided. Fortunately, my boss doesn't have a problem with that. (and he shouldn't. I'm a consistently good worker.)
So after worked, I indulged in some retail therapy. Bought a few manga, a book from the Oatmeal, and assorted chips and cookies. I should be set for tonight. :3
Plus there's Planet Comicon tomorrow. I'm pretty hyped to possibly meet Randy Milholland. I hope I can remember to maybe ask for a sketch of Vanessa, who's my current favorite character in Something Positive. ^_^ We'll see how it goes. I'll probably get intimidated and not say much, like normal. I'm hoping if it's a semi-small venue that maybe it won't be such a problem for me.