Addiction
I never thought I would ever say this, but I finally know what it means to suffer and deal with an addiction that tears out your soul.
What I have been fighting over the past two and a half weeks has been a demon that has stuck with me for at least 16-18 years. It has not been easy to start kicking this demon, this addiction. I'm currently on day 17 of it. And I've come close to relapsing a couple times, but thanks to the grace of God, I have not.
17 days may not seem like a long time, but for an addict, it means a lot. 21 days is the goal for removing a bad habit and replacing it. However, a long-time addict has to spend a lot more time on recovery. And even sometimes, it's still hard many years afterwards to fight. But as your brain is rewired, and your sensitivity grows, the addiction wanes.
I could not get through this without some very close friends, especially Kyaa. Now, my biggest issue is after I hit 21 days. Then 30 days. It's the extention of this and the overcoming of the withdrawal. It may take me months, but I know that I'll be fine by the time I return to the states.
What I have been fighting over the past two and a half weeks has been a demon that has stuck with me for at least 16-18 years. It has not been easy to start kicking this demon, this addiction. I'm currently on day 17 of it. And I've come close to relapsing a couple times, but thanks to the grace of God, I have not.
17 days may not seem like a long time, but for an addict, it means a lot. 21 days is the goal for removing a bad habit and replacing it. However, a long-time addict has to spend a lot more time on recovery. And even sometimes, it's still hard many years afterwards to fight. But as your brain is rewired, and your sensitivity grows, the addiction wanes.
I could not get through this without some very close friends, especially Kyaa. Now, my biggest issue is after I hit 21 days. Then 30 days. It's the extention of this and the overcoming of the withdrawal. It may take me months, but I know that I'll be fine by the time I return to the states.