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This is going to be a forced entry. I've lost interest in just about everything, but I don't want anyone to think I've gone away. I'm still here. Things are so hard right now. I've actually talked about quitting school and moving out, which last year would've sounded like murder to me, but now seems like an actual option. Also, my paranoia has gone from being nothing to being everything. I'm driving myself crazy thinking that I've constantly done something wrong, that my friends are leaving me behind and doing their own things. I'm feeling even more distant from friends than I used to. The mall trip on Saturday was supposed to be the highlight of my week but something kept gnawing at the back of my head telling me it wasn't going to let me have a good time. And then I didn't. Don't get me wrong, the movie was awesome. Me buying more manga, another DS game and reserving a copy of Pokemon Diamond made me happy, but being with everyone just didn't have the same feeling as it did last semester. This semester feels so weird. I don't know what to do or think anymore. Anime and the internet have both lost appeal to me. I didn't get on the net for 3 nights. I haven't talked to anyone from my one forum in about 2 months. I love anime club, but even that's beginning to feel different. So yeah...you're basically caught up.