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I almost have Brian convinced he needs an LJ. I think it would make things more objective, although, there is no guarantee that he will unlock it for me or anyone else.
Had a long day today. Brian had a tournament at a mall in Orlando. He won 3 matches, then lost. I think he had a good time. I wandered the mall with too much money in my pocket (bill money) and spent it on things I shouldnt have. C'est la vie. It comes and it goes. But, I only spent $12, and it was on a book. I never really feel bad about spending money on books, but I do feel guilty for spending it on a new book. I prefer to buy gently used books, for many reasons, a big one being price.
I did get a little sticker with Hello Kitty in a devil suit. I want it tattooed on my ass. She's winking.
I went through all my old journal entries (lesbianpoetgrrl) and copied them to Word. I plan on printing them out at some point. I think they are important. I am analyzing them to see if anything triggers my dark spots. I am sure that something does, just not sure what. I started a paper therapy journal too. It's already full of charts and graphs that mean nothing to anyone except myself.
Killian is such a cute kid. He wore carpenter jeans today, with a little tiny hammer loop. What does he need it for? I dont know, but his diapered bum looks cute in his jeans. It's so funny to watch him walk, b/c you immediately think, "he looks just like a little person". Which, he is, but I don't think of him that way really. I think of him as this fragile little being that needs me to live. But he's going to grow up to be a man! A really tall man!
His hands are huge already! He's so adorable.
Grabbed some strawberry bubble tea while in Orlando. It was yum.
Brian brought me a flower today. We had a really interesting talk about things. I guess he needed to step back and look at things, and he realized at work the other day that he HAS stopped trying. He really wants to make things work. But he also came to the brilliant conclusion today that if HE is happy, I am much happier. We had a good day today.
Church tomorrow.
I am a little nervous.
Had a long day today. Brian had a tournament at a mall in Orlando. He won 3 matches, then lost. I think he had a good time. I wandered the mall with too much money in my pocket (bill money) and spent it on things I shouldnt have. C'est la vie. It comes and it goes. But, I only spent $12, and it was on a book. I never really feel bad about spending money on books, but I do feel guilty for spending it on a new book. I prefer to buy gently used books, for many reasons, a big one being price.
I did get a little sticker with Hello Kitty in a devil suit. I want it tattooed on my ass. She's winking.
I went through all my old journal entries (lesbianpoetgrrl) and copied them to Word. I plan on printing them out at some point. I think they are important. I am analyzing them to see if anything triggers my dark spots. I am sure that something does, just not sure what. I started a paper therapy journal too. It's already full of charts and graphs that mean nothing to anyone except myself.
Killian is such a cute kid. He wore carpenter jeans today, with a little tiny hammer loop. What does he need it for? I dont know, but his diapered bum looks cute in his jeans. It's so funny to watch him walk, b/c you immediately think, "he looks just like a little person". Which, he is, but I don't think of him that way really. I think of him as this fragile little being that needs me to live. But he's going to grow up to be a man! A really tall man!
His hands are huge already! He's so adorable.
Grabbed some strawberry bubble tea while in Orlando. It was yum.
Brian brought me a flower today. We had a really interesting talk about things. I guess he needed to step back and look at things, and he realized at work the other day that he HAS stopped trying. He really wants to make things work. But he also came to the brilliant conclusion today that if HE is happy, I am much happier. We had a good day today.
Church tomorrow.
I am a little nervous.