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The problem with my regular computer is definitely some sort of damage to the system registry. I got the same message again, about there being an error in the system reg, then the computer refused to boot up for three or four tries. I finally got it to boot up again so I could save more pictures off it. Damn I have collected a lot of Jensen pics. I don't think reinstalling aol will help, but I'll try it anyway. (I uninstalled it today. Lost lots of nice links. :( ) I'm going to look around a bit to see if there's a way for me to fix it. I sort of want a new computer anyway, but it's not something I can just run out and buy. My tax return is already fully committed: I need 1). clothes 2). some new cookware 3). new discman with anti-skip 4). uhhh other necessities I'm currently forgetting 5). fun in Florida! 6). what's left over gets spent at A-kon
I had all this stuff planned and outlined for my "Miracles" fics and then Dean Winchester had to come along and complicate everything. I'm trying to replan everything because it's easier for me to work from notes and a timeline, but certain characters are just not cooperating, and I'm afraid other charas will be sold short because of it. I don't know why it matters to me because everyone else writes self-serving stuff that they like, and I'm so worried about people not liking what I write. I guess I need to remember that part of the point of fanfic is to satisfy some need of the fan. Just because it's crackilious doesn't mean no one else will like it. Just because it's my little soap opera doesn't mean other people won't get into it. Why have I lost so much confidence in my writing? Damned if I can explain it to myself.
I've been meaning to say something to a couple people because I've been feeling very grateful for their support these last few months. The writing is so important to me, and to have it treated as such means everything to me. So, Kaye, you are my best friend, and you prove it by being just about the nost supportive person of my dreams of being an author. You don't read everything, but when I need to yack about an idea, or brainstorm, or just get some opinions on a plot bunny, you always listen. People sometimes belittle me or treat me like I'm annoying them when I bring up a story idea I'd like to talk about, but I can't remember a single time that you've done that. You always listen with enthusiasm. Even if I'm writing in a fandom you're not into, you still get excited about ideas I bring up and get sucked into it while I describe what I have planned. It is such a high for me and lets me know when I'm on the right track. You even listen as objectively as possible when I talk about the whacked out ideas I'm trying to make sense of. I have never felt like second best when chatting with you about my writing. I just wanted to make sure you knew how much all that means to me.
I'd also like to say to Carl Crew, you may never read this, but something you once said to me was so inspirational that it still keeps me going to this day. You read issues of my now pretty much defunct zine, Demented, and told me that I should quit college to pursue doing the writing full time. I was too afraid to take that chance, but the fact that you, someone who has actually made independent films and written your own screenplays, thought so much of my work... well, when I feel really bad about my writing, I remember what you said, and it makes me feel better.
And where would I be without my friends online who read my stuff, especially those of you who really seem to like it? Thanks for the support and enthusiasm.
I had all this stuff planned and outlined for my "Miracles" fics and then Dean Winchester had to come along and complicate everything. I'm trying to replan everything because it's easier for me to work from notes and a timeline, but certain characters are just not cooperating, and I'm afraid other charas will be sold short because of it. I don't know why it matters to me because everyone else writes self-serving stuff that they like, and I'm so worried about people not liking what I write. I guess I need to remember that part of the point of fanfic is to satisfy some need of the fan. Just because it's crackilious doesn't mean no one else will like it. Just because it's my little soap opera doesn't mean other people won't get into it. Why have I lost so much confidence in my writing? Damned if I can explain it to myself.
I've been meaning to say something to a couple people because I've been feeling very grateful for their support these last few months. The writing is so important to me, and to have it treated as such means everything to me. So, Kaye, you are my best friend, and you prove it by being just about the nost supportive person of my dreams of being an author. You don't read everything, but when I need to yack about an idea, or brainstorm, or just get some opinions on a plot bunny, you always listen. People sometimes belittle me or treat me like I'm annoying them when I bring up a story idea I'd like to talk about, but I can't remember a single time that you've done that. You always listen with enthusiasm. Even if I'm writing in a fandom you're not into, you still get excited about ideas I bring up and get sucked into it while I describe what I have planned. It is such a high for me and lets me know when I'm on the right track. You even listen as objectively as possible when I talk about the whacked out ideas I'm trying to make sense of. I have never felt like second best when chatting with you about my writing. I just wanted to make sure you knew how much all that means to me.
I'd also like to say to Carl Crew, you may never read this, but something you once said to me was so inspirational that it still keeps me going to this day. You read issues of my now pretty much defunct zine, Demented, and told me that I should quit college to pursue doing the writing full time. I was too afraid to take that chance, but the fact that you, someone who has actually made independent films and written your own screenplays, thought so much of my work... well, when I feel really bad about my writing, I remember what you said, and it makes me feel better.
And where would I be without my friends online who read my stuff, especially those of you who really seem to like it? Thanks for the support and enthusiasm.