Steve and I are taking a break

[sailorangei]

I really can't say "broke up." It sounds so very final and I'm really not ready to say that.

But yeah. We're having some time not being together.

I love him so very much. I never ever thought someone would ever find me attractive. He does. For seven years we've been together and no one knows us as completely as we do,

I didn't want to do this.

But we are not where I wanted us to be at this point in our lives. I want to be his wife. We can't even live together right now.

This hurts so very much and I did not want to do this. I always imagined his face at the end of the aisle.

If I don't go now and see what else is out there, I could be stuck in this exact situation for another seven years.

I love him so much. He's saved my life. I swear I would have hurt myself long ago without his presence here.

I'm at a friend's place and am still distracted. They're making me feel so much better right now.

I hope I made the right decision.

I love him.