Summer is over.........
I havent updated in forever.
Since camp I have..................
- Went to Connecticut with Nick and my sister Laura. We drove up there, so it was like an rd trip. But an rd trip in a really fucked up new van that would go in reverse when it was in drive. We went there to see my Grandma who is really sick but raising my 3 yr old cousin. We had a family dinner when we where up there and it was madness. Nick got to see how messed up my family is and comforted me when I cried that night. We took all my grandmas valuables that she had left home with us, so my uncle cant abuse her and sell her antiques for drugs. Even though he just got out of prison. The whole trip wasn’t bad though Nick and I watched my cousin Bryce a lot. I went to the store with my grandma and she was going to report these kids in tuxes grocery shopping, when I asked what they did she replied with I didn’t like how they where looking at you. My grandma is crazy. Nick and I shared a bed the whole week and snuggled without my grandma knowing b/c she can’t get upstairs. I really missed Nick while I was at camp. It was an ok time. Long drive 12 hrs = Worth it just seeing my grandma break down to Blondie.
- Rob and I had a heart to heart. Some sort of understanding…I never thought would happen.
- Brannon called my ex boyfriend from 9th grade. It was really random. He was just like being at college makes me miss the people I used to hang out with. I remember we used to have such a great time. You can come visit me and party whenever you want. I don’t know what to think of that…….. But it was good to her from him none the less he’s going to Hanover and playing football. Brannon is a good kid.
- Oliver has wanted to go on a date ever since we meet earlier this summer. I have always been busy. But he called today and asked me to go out tomorrow. Why not? He’s a really goofy guy. He has to be to be David P. best friend.
- I am house-sitting my sisters apartment from tomorrow to next Thursday. Can anyone say party? Too bad my friends are going to the gorge this weekend. But I don’t really feel like it. We have a whole week to have fun.
- I am like a “Nanny” now, I watch Logan from 8-2 Mon-Fri. I have known Logan (Caleb’s baby brother) since he was born he’s practically my little brother. So nothing big. It makes me really tired though.
- I am taking some online classes’ b/c my parents are making me so I can stay on the insurance.
- In a couple months as soon as Dustin and I plan it where going backpacking threw Europe starting in Paris.
- I have been hanging out with Taylor a lot. I love Taylor she was like my best friend at camp. She’s in her own world. But can always cheer me up and make me laugh. She needs to work on her driving though b/c every time I get in a car with her a feel like I am going to die. She’s my favorite person to get food with because we always agree. She’s also my voice of reason a lot. She tells me how it is. Ex. Alyssa you slept with Ross, he’s a man whore. He’s might as well where a sign saying I am a walking venereal desiese. Even though it’s not true it’s funny. She’s a senior and more naive about some things so I watch out for her a lot. She’s great!
- I have been hanging out with Tom and Ross since camp. More so Ross because were closer we have this pack going to be friends and nothing more we will see if it lasts. Well I am hanging out with him this weekend sometime.
- I went to the fair it was lame. But I like fudge.
- I’ve been trying to call Robby. He won’t answer. I really miss him. Was it foolish of me to think when I came back from camp everything would have blown over and wed be back to being best friends? Not best enemies? Who would have thought that the person I spent nearly everyday with for 5 months wouldn’t talk to me anymore? I care a lot about Robby. I was very close to Robby. Robby and I had a pretty bad breakup. But I never thought we wouldn’t be able to overcome it. Kind of childish if you ask me. What do I miss most about Robby? Well I miss our friendship more then anything. We had a really special bond. Something different then with all my other friends. I don’t really miss dating or being intimate. Honesty hurts but I was really never into him like that. He was my best friend who I thought I would give it a chance with his convincing. He told me to give it a chance and that it would never ruin or affect our friendship. He promised that even if we broke up that we would still be friends. I guess I jumped into the relationship s because at the time I was on the rebound, I was really sad and I needed support. Robby will tell you I lied to him a lot. To him it might seem this way. I told him I cared about him, liked spending time with him and even that I loved him. All these things are true in a friend kind of way. I guess he just felt those things in a romantic kind of way. I don’t know. As of now Robby won’t speak to me and I wont lie it really hurts. I wish we could go back in time and be friends… I don’t know what else to say.
Thats all for now because I am tired i will update about my summer soon. Try back tommorow