Life goes on.....
This is me remembering i had this journal and updating. I havent writen in forever...but to me it seems as though so much has happened the last couple months, it all happened kinda fast. I was pretty depressed up until recently and i know i pushed a lot of people away who were only trying to help and i feel bad about it. But the truth is i just needeed time to myself , i wasnt really talking or hanging out with anyone much so dont be offended and now I am back to myself. I live a fucking crazy life and its never going to be "normal". You just have to learn from things and not make the same mistakes. I guess im lucky in a sense. I need a new atmosphere, but at the same time i just cant abandon all my friends, its hard. I am just going to try to start over and thats all I am gonna say about that.
Hmmmm what interesting has happened latly...........
Well I was mugged...... In the holiday manor parking lot they took my purse, but i knew who it was b/c they go to my school. So he went to jail b/c he was already on probation for robing lotsa pasta with a gun. Some people are mad at me for telling on him b/c you could say he was popular or just everyones drug dealer, but no ones really said anything to me so its cool. I mean what was i susposed to do, i was pissed off it had my paycheck,credit cards,200$,passport ect.... The sad part was a was with Willie and he just stood there like a wuss. So that was pretty crazy i just hope I dont have to go to court over it. Greg Cisil , Austin Becker bad news..... I was to upset to go home like i was shaking. So Marcus came and meet me and tried to call Austin but he wouldnt answer and marcus felt bad, So we went to the park and eventually fell asleep in my car and woke up at like 7 and i went straight to school.
I went to Warren Willson. It was so pretty, I think thats were I wanna go. This was a couple weeks ago. I had a tour and interview and met my host she was pretty cool and I stayed over with her and we went in to town with her friends and saw crazy malone whos like this 90 yr old jazz muscian. Sat was open house- I just like the whole atmoshpere and the people are awesome. I just need to get away from louisville. But if all else fails I scored a 29 on my ACT (how dont ask me I just always test well) It sure does piss off my friends though, because i never put forth thr effort in school and i score way higher on tests. So far ive gotten into Bellermine, U of L, UK and Western. Its nice to have schools to fall back on, but I hate these schools.
November 17( Wensday ) was my 18th birthday. It actually was the best birthday ive had in a couple of years. I went to school and in Math they sang me Happy Birthday mostly b/c my math teacher is cracked out, I love her, shes like the best teacher I have ever had she makes things so easy. It really scared me though b/c at 7.45 your not very alert and when someone sneaks behind you and starts singing loadly its kinda scary. Went to Phych and Emily made me cookies, but we managed to eat them all in that period. Heidi made me cupcakes. I told ppl ahead of time not to get me a balloon b/c i wouldnt carry it. Matt was really sweet and everyone said Happy Birthday even ppl i dont know and it was just really good! I got home and caleb sent me tons of tea roses b/c he couldnt come in town. I went to Bahama Breeze with my family and Nick while i was there PJ sang me his version of happy bofo to mofo (hes hilirious). We came home and ate cake. My dad gave me a new photography camra but i have to go pick it out still, I am pretty keen on this Nikon and a new case. Laura gave me an mp3. Cathy gave me more flowers, gift card and healthy stuff. My mom gave me jewlery from the sliver shop. That was my family, the real party was Sat.
This whole weekend was a never ending party. Ill start withFriday- I called up Kim, we meet up @ highland. I spantaiously decided to get my belly button repeirced b/c it closed and the first time it was crooked so we went up to highland tatoo and did that. We then went to Kims friend Robs, there were like 15 ppl over there. Highland Junkies, they where great. Kim left around 12 and I stayed b/c I hate being at home on weekends and derrick was suspossed to take me home but he didnt leave until like 5 so I just stayed at his house. I guess they all just got into playing DDR in there boxers or Ryan in his leotard who knows. I like them, gotta chill with them more offen, there so nice and funny. I stayed at Derricks til about 2.30, he left me there when he went out with his mom to lunch, it was weried i scared the crap out of his roomate or he was actually kinda chill he was just like whats up I went shoping with nate for a pink cowboy hat and boots for his girl at the mall and went to hooters for wings.. Sat night-Nick and Dustin threw me a Birthday Party or you could say it was just a big drinking party. Nick gave me a cool braclet and Dustin gave me a Photo Picture of me climbing and its really awesome. I got alot of small gifts but thats all I remember. There was atleast 30 people in there apartment. I stopped answering my phone there were too many people. It was actually a really good party. Besides the fact me and Caleb got in a huge fight, probably over reacting b/c i was drunk. He brought another girl to my birthday. Who does that? Yea i was mad. I screamed at him and made him leave. Nick and Dustin were rollin, I felt kinda bad about it though after I was sober, but still he shouldnt have done that. I went to bed at like 6 or 7, I dont even know and woke up like at 4 pm. Dustin and me then made pancakes. I talked to Caleb for awhile as he begged for forgivness. I went over to his parents house, his parents gave me this cool wood box. Caleb gave me my present, it was so sweet he drew me a huge picture of a daisy and they backround it all bright and colorful with oil pastels and he drew anonther picture of me in charcoal.. They where really good, he spent a lot of time on them i could tell, i wish he knew how good at art he is. They were awesome they made me melt, presents from him ussually do, because hes so good at coming up with stuff. I need to think of something for Christmas but ill never think of stuff like he does. Well I spent the night over there, went to school it was dull and now its about time for bed. Peace Out