i guess it's been awhile
i know i haven't updated in forever but it doesn't seem like anyone even reads this anymore so i've let it go.
a lot has been going on but it still feels too raw to express here. i'll give ya'll some highlights...
marie moved to vegas without telling anyone, we're finally to a point where we are talking but i'm still unsure of where this will end up. chris is suing mom and dad and has threatened their and charlie's lives but yet i'm caught in the middle b/c i still live at home so anything he does to mom and dad i will ultimately be caught up in i just hope i don't end up the victim. i'm utterly confused about my relationship with joe, i feel as if i'm at a crossroads and i should've written down the directions. as of tuesday night at 11:59 pm i will be done smoking...everything. the thought is a little scary b/c i've always smoked to forget and soon i'll be stuck with the images that i've long forgotten about b/c the one substance that helped to make things somewhat better will be gone from my life. i feel as if i'll miss it but in the end this will be better for me. i just can't see that now b/c my mind is still confused.
well that's what's been going on. i hope all is better with everyone else b/c i'd hate to see someone else going through the hell that has become my life.
g'nite
a lot has been going on but it still feels too raw to express here. i'll give ya'll some highlights...
marie moved to vegas without telling anyone, we're finally to a point where we are talking but i'm still unsure of where this will end up. chris is suing mom and dad and has threatened their and charlie's lives but yet i'm caught in the middle b/c i still live at home so anything he does to mom and dad i will ultimately be caught up in i just hope i don't end up the victim. i'm utterly confused about my relationship with joe, i feel as if i'm at a crossroads and i should've written down the directions. as of tuesday night at 11:59 pm i will be done smoking...everything. the thought is a little scary b/c i've always smoked to forget and soon i'll be stuck with the images that i've long forgotten about b/c the one substance that helped to make things somewhat better will be gone from my life. i feel as if i'll miss it but in the end this will be better for me. i just can't see that now b/c my mind is still confused.
well that's what's been going on. i hope all is better with everyone else b/c i'd hate to see someone else going through the hell that has become my life.
g'nite