14 days too long.
I dropped my parents of at the Airport a few hours ago, by now there headed to the motherland, Cambodia. And I am utterly stuck in the greater Pacific Northwest for a good two weeks. I know I should be ecstatic and saying something like, “yes! My parents are gone and I have the house to myself!”
But I find myself is a different predicament, this house is too big for one single person to hang out in for two weeks. My friends are scattered throughout the state of Washington and beyond, my siblings are tending to there own families. And I am left here along with nothing to do, but to worry.
I can predict my daily regiment. It will consist of waking up at noon, working out until two in the afternoon, make myself lunch, watch television for a good hour, read a book for three more hours, make myself dinner while listening to music, rent two films from the local movie rental place, play video games after that until two in the morning, and my regiment with start all over again.
I have a lot of time to myself, almost too much. When I am at home, I want to spend all my time with my family, even though I act as if I could care less. But without my family, my “home” is just an empty shell. Which leads me into a greater fear…. Which is to be lonely.
The thought of being lonely is a plague; it is the disease I fear, I NEVER want to be lonely. But then again I don’t quite want to be social in the traditional sense for twenty-some year olds. I simply want to live a quite life with a partner who shares the same or at least similar views. So how to avoid being lonely, when I have so much time? I buy A CRAP TON of stuff.
My most recent purchase was this nifty technological device, the Motorola Q 9c. This bad boy is almost too much for me. I don’t even know how to access my voicemail, but it has like word, Internet, gps, and television. All of these additions are quite fantastic, but highly unnecessary for a phone. Oh and guitar hero 3 for the wii of course.
So, here is a toast to myself and others like myself. "For all those people we miss, replace them with winter's greatest bliss!"
But I find myself is a different predicament, this house is too big for one single person to hang out in for two weeks. My friends are scattered throughout the state of Washington and beyond, my siblings are tending to there own families. And I am left here along with nothing to do, but to worry.
I can predict my daily regiment. It will consist of waking up at noon, working out until two in the afternoon, make myself lunch, watch television for a good hour, read a book for three more hours, make myself dinner while listening to music, rent two films from the local movie rental place, play video games after that until two in the morning, and my regiment with start all over again.
I have a lot of time to myself, almost too much. When I am at home, I want to spend all my time with my family, even though I act as if I could care less. But without my family, my “home” is just an empty shell. Which leads me into a greater fear…. Which is to be lonely.
The thought of being lonely is a plague; it is the disease I fear, I NEVER want to be lonely. But then again I don’t quite want to be social in the traditional sense for twenty-some year olds. I simply want to live a quite life with a partner who shares the same or at least similar views. So how to avoid being lonely, when I have so much time? I buy A CRAP TON of stuff.
My most recent purchase was this nifty technological device, the Motorola Q 9c. This bad boy is almost too much for me. I don’t even know how to access my voicemail, but it has like word, Internet, gps, and television. All of these additions are quite fantastic, but highly unnecessary for a phone. Oh and guitar hero 3 for the wii of course.
So, here is a toast to myself and others like myself. "For all those people we miss, replace them with winter's greatest bliss!"