holiday drama
don't be alarmed by the subject title, this is still a positive post but it ends with a air of uncertainty
i had the best birthday ever a couple weeks back. i didn't get anything special, i didn't ask for much. but i got what i wished for the deepest. i got hoards of reminders from lots of friends who wanted to to send me birthday cheer messages. the littlest thing from text messages to facebook notes (which i haven't even tended to since i left boston). to a special dinner cooked in my honor. little things in compilation are so much stronger than big ones and i'm grateful for the reminder of the good i put out and recieve in return.
work was really stressful the past month though and i'm so in need of a vacation. i'm proud that i've begun a tangible process to transfer schools. and i'm more or less in complacive terms with my immediate family
although it now feels like the busy body lifestyle we partake in is begining to purge some of its flaws. my mom is hopefully happy in new jersey this christmas and i'll miss her, and i'm reminded of how my brother is doing his thing but still not speaking to her because of her own workaholic and unhealthy home lifestyle. she fears he won't accept her gift so she wants me to say its from me, but i'm thinking i'll rather wrap and give it in her name and also reiterate i can talk about his feelings regarding their situation if he needs.
also some close friends have been pulled apart not malisciously but out of circumstance and it's hard for me to see the tragedy. i want to hope for the best but there's so much going on i know i can only be a supportive friend for them both as they walk down their own processes.
oh and i was really behind on xmas shopping and was going to buckle down this weekend but threw up this morning b/c of food poisoning and it really sucks. but that aside, i will get my center and calm come wednessay sans sisfren <3
i had the best birthday ever a couple weeks back. i didn't get anything special, i didn't ask for much. but i got what i wished for the deepest. i got hoards of reminders from lots of friends who wanted to to send me birthday cheer messages. the littlest thing from text messages to facebook notes (which i haven't even tended to since i left boston). to a special dinner cooked in my honor. little things in compilation are so much stronger than big ones and i'm grateful for the reminder of the good i put out and recieve in return.
work was really stressful the past month though and i'm so in need of a vacation. i'm proud that i've begun a tangible process to transfer schools. and i'm more or less in complacive terms with my immediate family
although it now feels like the busy body lifestyle we partake in is begining to purge some of its flaws. my mom is hopefully happy in new jersey this christmas and i'll miss her, and i'm reminded of how my brother is doing his thing but still not speaking to her because of her own workaholic and unhealthy home lifestyle. she fears he won't accept her gift so she wants me to say its from me, but i'm thinking i'll rather wrap and give it in her name and also reiterate i can talk about his feelings regarding their situation if he needs.
also some close friends have been pulled apart not malisciously but out of circumstance and it's hard for me to see the tragedy. i want to hope for the best but there's so much going on i know i can only be a supportive friend for them both as they walk down their own processes.
oh and i was really behind on xmas shopping and was going to buckle down this weekend but threw up this morning b/c of food poisoning and it really sucks. but that aside, i will get my center and calm come wednessay sans sisfren <3