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wow.. i have so much to say......
but the words wont come out the right way.....
yesterday was sad and thats all i can say..
damn i wish what i did didnt happen that way....
heres the scoop.. tell me what you have to say...
wow yesterday started out good.. woke up late becuase i didnt have to go to school because i was getting an new insulin pump.. (as sad as i am now, i will still say ITS SOOOO COOL!!!!!) anyways.. i went to a yale new haven hospital building to check everythig so i can use this thingy and while we were there we had to check my A1C ((which is an average bloodsugar for three months)) well... it turned out to be 8.5 when its supposed to be like 6.0 which means its high... so i got in trouble with that since ive been nagging on how much my friggen parents are on top of me lately. Well anyways.. we eventually come home.. my dad was watching my brother ans sister while me and my stepmom went to the doctorrs. and as soon as we enter the driveway, my dads pissed off at me....
about 15 minutes later my dad said he had to go back to work and my stepmom was going to brig my sis and bro to my aunt and uncles house since i wasnt allowed to go due to the bloodsugar thingy... so my dad was leaving.. i took my backpack up stairs to my room since i was instructed to "study for finals and no tv and computer". when i came down i stood next to "my baby" in his carrier and all of a sudden i heard my dad and stepmom talking in the mudd room about something me linz megale and justin bennett had wrote two days before online that we had saved and printed out... ok ill admit there was "profanity" in it and there was some nasty remarks in it.. but still it was between ME AND MY FREINDS!!!! NOT MY PARENTS!!!! so i didnt say anythig i let it go until they left.. i was so pissed off.... then it hit me... the other day previously in the week... i had to eliminate somthing from my mirror that me britt pataky linz and justin wrote on it... i was asically al; making fun of justin ears and shit... anyways my parents saw it and made me take it off.... which must clearly mena that my stepmom was snooping around in my room since you cant see my mirror from my door.. its inside of my closet...
so back to yesterday..... as it clicked to me that my parents werte snoping around before... thats when i got on my nextel and called my stepmom... i was PISSED!!!!!!! i was going off on her like crazy- swearing yelling.. say how dare she snoop.. i hate her.. and then she said to me that i was a bitch and that i was SPOLIED when the day before it was my sister bday and she truned 5 and she got a 350 dollar digital camera!! IM SPOILED???? so i turned aroud and said i wasnt spoiled and that her DAUGHTER WHICH SHE DOESNT EVEN TREAT ME LIKE ONE.. WAS SPOLIED!!!!!! omg guys i was livid.... she told me in response that she was truning around and was going to beat my asss....... i was so fucking scared when all of a sudden i hear shreeks in the driveway and i hear her coming upstairs... so what do i do??? i lock the dooor and put my dresser in front of it.....
WORLD WAR 3!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i wont get into all of the details but eventually my dad came home broke open the door against my force while my sis was crying cuz she thought my stepmom was gunna kill me cuz i was crying like crazy saying she was gunna beat me....
all of a sudden... i started having a seizure... no lie... it happens with diabetes... anyways my stepmom left cuz she had to cuz she couldnt handle me anymore and my dad was there and was trying to help me... he called her and a whole other hoour later... i was fine... my meter actually showed that my bloodsugar was high ((which happens due to stress)) hhhmmmmmmmmm.... i wonder if i was under stress yesterday???? well... my parents werent gunna allow me to stay home a lone since all this shit happened so i had to go with the evil BITCH!!!!! she made me staty in her car for 2 hours while she and the kids swam @ my aunts and then ...THEN she asked me to come inside due to me falling asleep cuz of the heat....
well "long story short" that night we got home and we had dinner... mu sis was sent upstairs because she want allowed to hear the conversation so we all get into a big argument.. "WHY WAS I PUTTING ON A SHOW TODAY??" "WHY DID MY STEPMOM COME AFTER ME??" and "SHOULD I LIVE WITH THEM ANYMORE" - cuz now my s.m doest want me here anymore... 2 hour conversation ended with me getting everything stripped from my room... NOTHING LEFT!!!! im not allowed to go on 2 boat trips so far.. this and next weekend... and i have nothing in my room... no cds, karaoke machine, and CLOTHES.. they fricken left me with 3 outfuits that ill have to wash every day.... uUUUGGGGHHHHH!!!!! IM SO MADDDD!!!! so the deal was that if i brought everything out of my room... ill eventually get it back... but if they did they were getting rid of it.. and they werent kidding... wow i slept on a empty mattress.. wihtout ac or a fan with ntohhin in my room... no cool lava lamps.. no eeyores to cuddle with NOTHING!!!!!
but the bell just rang and i have to go... im mad.... and to anyone that reads this whole thing.. i knwo youre my yre friends...... and you guys out there are probably the only thing that will help me threw this right now... THANKS.. illl write in computer class... more to tell..
LOVE, LAUREN <3 xoxo
but the words wont come out the right way.....
yesterday was sad and thats all i can say..
damn i wish what i did didnt happen that way....
heres the scoop.. tell me what you have to say...
wow yesterday started out good.. woke up late becuase i didnt have to go to school because i was getting an new insulin pump.. (as sad as i am now, i will still say ITS SOOOO COOL!!!!!) anyways.. i went to a yale new haven hospital building to check everythig so i can use this thingy and while we were there we had to check my A1C ((which is an average bloodsugar for three months)) well... it turned out to be 8.5 when its supposed to be like 6.0 which means its high... so i got in trouble with that since ive been nagging on how much my friggen parents are on top of me lately. Well anyways.. we eventually come home.. my dad was watching my brother ans sister while me and my stepmom went to the doctorrs. and as soon as we enter the driveway, my dads pissed off at me....
about 15 minutes later my dad said he had to go back to work and my stepmom was going to brig my sis and bro to my aunt and uncles house since i wasnt allowed to go due to the bloodsugar thingy... so my dad was leaving.. i took my backpack up stairs to my room since i was instructed to "study for finals and no tv and computer". when i came down i stood next to "my baby" in his carrier and all of a sudden i heard my dad and stepmom talking in the mudd room about something me linz megale and justin bennett had wrote two days before online that we had saved and printed out... ok ill admit there was "profanity" in it and there was some nasty remarks in it.. but still it was between ME AND MY FREINDS!!!! NOT MY PARENTS!!!! so i didnt say anythig i let it go until they left.. i was so pissed off.... then it hit me... the other day previously in the week... i had to eliminate somthing from my mirror that me britt pataky linz and justin wrote on it... i was asically al; making fun of justin ears and shit... anyways my parents saw it and made me take it off.... which must clearly mena that my stepmom was snooping around in my room since you cant see my mirror from my door.. its inside of my closet...
so back to yesterday..... as it clicked to me that my parents werte snoping around before... thats when i got on my nextel and called my stepmom... i was PISSED!!!!!!! i was going off on her like crazy- swearing yelling.. say how dare she snoop.. i hate her.. and then she said to me that i was a bitch and that i was SPOLIED when the day before it was my sister bday and she truned 5 and she got a 350 dollar digital camera!! IM SPOILED???? so i turned aroud and said i wasnt spoiled and that her DAUGHTER WHICH SHE DOESNT EVEN TREAT ME LIKE ONE.. WAS SPOLIED!!!!!! omg guys i was livid.... she told me in response that she was truning around and was going to beat my asss....... i was so fucking scared when all of a sudden i hear shreeks in the driveway and i hear her coming upstairs... so what do i do??? i lock the dooor and put my dresser in front of it.....
WORLD WAR 3!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i wont get into all of the details but eventually my dad came home broke open the door against my force while my sis was crying cuz she thought my stepmom was gunna kill me cuz i was crying like crazy saying she was gunna beat me....
all of a sudden... i started having a seizure... no lie... it happens with diabetes... anyways my stepmom left cuz she had to cuz she couldnt handle me anymore and my dad was there and was trying to help me... he called her and a whole other hoour later... i was fine... my meter actually showed that my bloodsugar was high ((which happens due to stress)) hhhmmmmmmmmm.... i wonder if i was under stress yesterday???? well... my parents werent gunna allow me to stay home a lone since all this shit happened so i had to go with the evil BITCH!!!!! she made me staty in her car for 2 hours while she and the kids swam @ my aunts and then ...THEN she asked me to come inside due to me falling asleep cuz of the heat....
well "long story short" that night we got home and we had dinner... mu sis was sent upstairs because she want allowed to hear the conversation so we all get into a big argument.. "WHY WAS I PUTTING ON A SHOW TODAY??" "WHY DID MY STEPMOM COME AFTER ME??" and "SHOULD I LIVE WITH THEM ANYMORE" - cuz now my s.m doest want me here anymore... 2 hour conversation ended with me getting everything stripped from my room... NOTHING LEFT!!!! im not allowed to go on 2 boat trips so far.. this and next weekend... and i have nothing in my room... no cds, karaoke machine, and CLOTHES.. they fricken left me with 3 outfuits that ill have to wash every day.... uUUUGGGGHHHHH!!!!! IM SO MADDDD!!!! so the deal was that if i brought everything out of my room... ill eventually get it back... but if they did they were getting rid of it.. and they werent kidding... wow i slept on a empty mattress.. wihtout ac or a fan with ntohhin in my room... no cool lava lamps.. no eeyores to cuddle with NOTHING!!!!!
but the bell just rang and i have to go... im mad.... and to anyone that reads this whole thing.. i knwo youre my yre friends...... and you guys out there are probably the only thing that will help me threw this right now... THANKS.. illl write in computer class... more to tell..
LOVE, LAUREN <3 xoxo