why is this is my life....
God i feel so down and out and I'm not exactly sure why...
I know things that are affecting me... but i don't know why they're affecting me soooooo much.
I swear I haven't felt complete and utter satisfaction in such a long time.
I haven't felt complete happiness in so long i forgot what it feels like.
I haven't been completely content with life in so long.
And I'm FUCKIN TIRED of it all!!!
I really wish that I could just take off on a plane tomorrow and just disappear for a while... i just wanna leave... where no one knows me or no one knows where i am... i just wanna be free... from all the pressure and the hugde weight on my shoulders.
Fuck this time heals all bullshit, fuck the "just be patient" better things await... I've been waiting for far too long.
I just wanna be up on my feet again... and lord knows I'm fuckin trying, I'm trying sooo fuckin hard, but it's soooo fuckin hard when your doing it on your own, when there's no one there to lend you a fuckin helping hand. And when things just keep coming at you and trying to knock you down. And they do, I mean when you're on your knees it's hard to get up while other things are flying at you.
God there's sooo much acceptance on my part and none of it is appreciated, i don't need any unesacery things in my life, yet i accept them from you, and you have no clue what I'm doing or how much I'm giving of myself to accept them, you don't appreciate it at all. I didn't accept my own, how do you expect me to accept yours along with extra baggage.
I'm tired, sooo fuckin tired...............
"I find it kinda funny, I find it kinda sad,
The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had"
I know things that are affecting me... but i don't know why they're affecting me soooooo much.
I swear I haven't felt complete and utter satisfaction in such a long time.
I haven't felt complete happiness in so long i forgot what it feels like.
I haven't been completely content with life in so long.
And I'm FUCKIN TIRED of it all!!!
I really wish that I could just take off on a plane tomorrow and just disappear for a while... i just wanna leave... where no one knows me or no one knows where i am... i just wanna be free... from all the pressure and the hugde weight on my shoulders.
Fuck this time heals all bullshit, fuck the "just be patient" better things await... I've been waiting for far too long.
I just wanna be up on my feet again... and lord knows I'm fuckin trying, I'm trying sooo fuckin hard, but it's soooo fuckin hard when your doing it on your own, when there's no one there to lend you a fuckin helping hand. And when things just keep coming at you and trying to knock you down. And they do, I mean when you're on your knees it's hard to get up while other things are flying at you.
God there's sooo much acceptance on my part and none of it is appreciated, i don't need any unesacery things in my life, yet i accept them from you, and you have no clue what I'm doing or how much I'm giving of myself to accept them, you don't appreciate it at all. I didn't accept my own, how do you expect me to accept yours along with extra baggage.
I'm tired, sooo fuckin tired...............
"I find it kinda funny, I find it kinda sad,
The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had"