Reset my Weight Goals and Learned to Identify True Friends

Jul 26, 2011 23:11

After losing about ten pounds last fall and winter, I stagnated around the winter holidays. Since January, I was just hovering between 133 and 136. I only took a couple breaks from working out but otherwise was putting five hours a week into it. However, my eating had fallen off discipline so I wasn't losing nor gaining weight ( Read more... )

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donuty July 31 2011, 04:27:53 UTC
I know it's a personal battle that each person has to figure out, but honestly, the moment I stopped thinking about dieting, stopped feeling guilty about whether I ate or didn't eat, the moment I spent that energy on just being active, like getting out there to ride my bike or work more active jobs more often or whatever... also when I realized that I should try to put more wholesome yet delicious things in my body so that I would be nourished and also satisfied.... that was when the weight came off. And now I have no idea what I weigh, and I know I probably go up or down five pounds, some days I'm a size 2 and some days I'm a size 6, I could give a shit either way, but I have accepted my body and what it wants and how to treat it in accordance with what makes me happiest and I feel great. I'm the smallest I've ever been but I feel that it's easy to maintain (well, impossible to break at this point) because I removed the game aspect and I don't overanalyze it. And when I want to eat ice cream every day, I do but I find that then I don't want to eat so much of other things which seems to balance it. If I don't feel like eating at all, I don't, sometimes I eat everything off my plate and sometimes I toss things based purely on whether I have a true desire for it, which I feel pretty in touch with. And I ride those feelings of eating avocadoes and tomatoes and pears and cherries and beets and cauliflower by the bucketful and I don't reward myself or punish myself or overthink any of it for one second because doing so would interrupt my natural sense of what I need. It's too hard to spend energy following strict guidelines that are unnatural to stick to and then spend more energy punishing yourself. It also takes you away from living your life!!! Better to change your whole approach overall in ways that you don't have to think too hard about. More whole fruits, veggies, beans, etc. Romanticize the things that are good for you, fall in love with healthy things but keep your love for things that might be bad for you too, that way neither one is screaming at you with a deafening roar. Focus on the things you love to eat that happen to be healthy and relish them. Seek things that are seasonal, start roasting veggies, cooking at home simply, and just get your anxieties about weight out in a way that doesn't lead to yo-yo-ing, because then it's a vicious cycle and I believe that cycle is the cause of the weight problems... your body is crying for stability. Train it gently and your body will tell you what to do, what you need or don't need if you just listen without trying to reprimand it all the damned time.
Be happy and live life! Okay that's the end of my rant, haha.

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