I'm baaaack!
I think this is the longest break I've ever taken from lj, but it's been quite an adjustment bringing another baby home. We're doing ok but Evan has had a really hard time adjusting. I really think I should have planned to have them closer together. He goes in waves. He'll be fine for a few weeks; his usual sweet self, and then he'll be hell-on-wheels for a few weeks. We're just coming out of a particularly bad spell right now. We're talking hitting, biting, whining, being extremely defiant., jumping on the baby...you name it. Part of the time I'm sympathetic to him. Afterall, he's got to be very jealous and he can't really express what he's feeling. The other half of the time I'm at the end of my rope with him. It just gets old real fast when I haven't slept and we're going on day 4 or 5 of not being able to leave the room without one of them because I can't leave them alone together. It's getting better though. This week at least.
Teagan is doing great. She coos and smiles at me, loves her brother despite the fact that he tortures her, slept 6 hrs straight at night right away- she's a dream. Of course, she doesn't let me put her down. It must be something in our genes because Evan was the same way. Unfortunately she has to be put down sometimes because I have Evan to care for too and occasionally I even need to pee or take a shower- how selfish of me!!! So, she cries more than I ever let Evan but I think she'll be ok.
We're cloth diapering this time through a diaper service. I love it, TJ's not entirely convinced but since he changes maybe one diaper a week he doesn't get to decide. Can't wait to pick up some new cute covers. Right now we have 5 white ones that the diaper service provided. I don't see her growing out of them anytime soon. She's only in the 10-25th% for weight but the 90th% for length- my little supermodel. Or UCONN basketball player!
I'm hanging in there. I was wondering if I had some kind of PPD for awhile. Just immense sadness and a feeling like I was failing my children. Some days it's bad, some days I'm fine. I hesitate to mention it to my doctor because I don't want them to insist on meds. It's not like I can't function on the bad days. I figure that with the nice weather, getting outside more and Teagan becoming a little bit less dependent on me every second of the day I should start feeling better. My family has also been a total unsupportive pain in my rear so that doesn't help at all. They make me second guess myself and feel badly every time I speak with them. Thank God they live far away and give me another "thank God" for TJ's family.
I'll post more often, it's nice to be back. For now I have to rest up. I have some dental work to get done tomorrow morning which means getting up extra early to worry about it and to pump. Fun stuff!
Teagan is doing great. She coos and smiles at me, loves her brother despite the fact that he tortures her, slept 6 hrs straight at night right away- she's a dream. Of course, she doesn't let me put her down. It must be something in our genes because Evan was the same way. Unfortunately she has to be put down sometimes because I have Evan to care for too and occasionally I even need to pee or take a shower- how selfish of me!!! So, she cries more than I ever let Evan but I think she'll be ok.
We're cloth diapering this time through a diaper service. I love it, TJ's not entirely convinced but since he changes maybe one diaper a week he doesn't get to decide. Can't wait to pick up some new cute covers. Right now we have 5 white ones that the diaper service provided. I don't see her growing out of them anytime soon. She's only in the 10-25th% for weight but the 90th% for length- my little supermodel. Or UCONN basketball player!
I'm hanging in there. I was wondering if I had some kind of PPD for awhile. Just immense sadness and a feeling like I was failing my children. Some days it's bad, some days I'm fine. I hesitate to mention it to my doctor because I don't want them to insist on meds. It's not like I can't function on the bad days. I figure that with the nice weather, getting outside more and Teagan becoming a little bit less dependent on me every second of the day I should start feeling better. My family has also been a total unsupportive pain in my rear so that doesn't help at all. They make me second guess myself and feel badly every time I speak with them. Thank God they live far away and give me another "thank God" for TJ's family.
I'll post more often, it's nice to be back. For now I have to rest up. I have some dental work to get done tomorrow morning which means getting up extra early to worry about it and to pump. Fun stuff!