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Well I didnt go to bed til almost 7 am.. Found out my friend ended up somewhere she shouldnt have.. But she still could have called.. Im still debating weather or not to go out tonight... *sigh* Late lastnight around 4 I needed somone to talk to and i didnt have a callin card so i called jay and we talked for hours and I told him EVERYTHING.. good things and bad things.. and we've decided that were gona start over ONE moretime.. if it doesnt work then we'll go our separate ways.. I hate to do it but I just cant stay in a relationship where im not happy ... I know it would be hard for xander but.. I know in time he will understand.. He's just the greatest little boy and no matter what mood im in.. he always has a smile for me when I walk in his room..I not long woke up from a nap so im feelin a little better but lonly.. Jay gets home tomorrow.. Its gonna feel so awkward to see him after everything we talked about.. I cried so much lastnight.. But now that i've gotten everything off my chest. I feel so much better and iknow i can sleep.. I know what i've done was wrong but I was just so unhappy and he was makin me feel unloved and unwanted.. Well I hope all are well.. I'll write more later.. Much love to all my pepps.. *HUGS*