merry fing christmas
:-/ last night all i could think about was sending jaron a email with all this shit.. but i dont know if i want to hold off or what?
The book is closeing....
Iam gonna tell him this.
Are we ever gonna go out? I know you dont like me like that, or else u would call me and talk to me and yeh u dont do that. But I need to know beacuse if we went out and we didnt talk alot after .. well right about now that doesnt matter beacuse i dont think were gonna tlak much anymore. were dying out as a friendship, iam sick of watching u like other girls, it puts me in bad moods, sad moods. Like bryanna! on wensday u SO blew me off to go talk to her!!! i was so pissed i was gonna leave then after that i walked with u to your locker and kept trying to leave.. we didnt even talk. then out side i was trying to walk away from you.. but i couldnt. i still feel for u.. but the book is closeing. We dont even hang out anymore, we dont even talk anymore. you never know if we went out we might still talk. i mean come on we have last hour together, i just cant sit around and watch you with other girls beacuse i see them and i dont understand why they can have u, but i cant!! and whats so much better about them and it makes me self conchuse. I just keep telling my Self hes Just not that into me. And u know what it works. i dont really care much anymore, i reamber a while ago i used to almost cry when i told myself that. but now..nope after wensday, how un careing u where.... it was just like wow, do i really want to waste my time on someone who is going to treat me like this.... you said u didnt want to go out with me beacuse of my friends to. they dont fucking care anymore, They dont care what we do, there sick of telling me stuff, they dont care, they dont know if they like you or if they dont. so it doesnt matter.
UGH. i just want to tell him that, but i dont know when is the right time!
he comes online and doesnt even talk to me!! He doesnt call.. He doesnt CARE
He said he Probally will like me as a girlfriend, but now now??? how can u fucking not like someone and then like them like that?? ok If he liked me he woudlnt be able to stop just like i coudlnt stop liking him. Fuck this You either like me like that or u dont! and u know what he didnt ruin my christmas no, fuck that.. what ruined my christmas is how gay it is. its jsut a stuiped holiday where people give u shit, like shit i dont even NEED. and they forget the whole meaning, this is Jesus's birthday, but no,its al MERRY CHRISTMAS. MERRY CHRISTMAS. they dont even mean the TRUE meaning. what is up with this. iam getting mad over some stuiped thing.
The book is closeing....
Iam gonna tell him this.
Are we ever gonna go out? I know you dont like me like that, or else u would call me and talk to me and yeh u dont do that. But I need to know beacuse if we went out and we didnt talk alot after .. well right about now that doesnt matter beacuse i dont think were gonna tlak much anymore. were dying out as a friendship, iam sick of watching u like other girls, it puts me in bad moods, sad moods. Like bryanna! on wensday u SO blew me off to go talk to her!!! i was so pissed i was gonna leave then after that i walked with u to your locker and kept trying to leave.. we didnt even talk. then out side i was trying to walk away from you.. but i couldnt. i still feel for u.. but the book is closeing. We dont even hang out anymore, we dont even talk anymore. you never know if we went out we might still talk. i mean come on we have last hour together, i just cant sit around and watch you with other girls beacuse i see them and i dont understand why they can have u, but i cant!! and whats so much better about them and it makes me self conchuse. I just keep telling my Self hes Just not that into me. And u know what it works. i dont really care much anymore, i reamber a while ago i used to almost cry when i told myself that. but now..nope after wensday, how un careing u where.... it was just like wow, do i really want to waste my time on someone who is going to treat me like this.... you said u didnt want to go out with me beacuse of my friends to. they dont fucking care anymore, They dont care what we do, there sick of telling me stuff, they dont care, they dont know if they like you or if they dont. so it doesnt matter.
UGH. i just want to tell him that, but i dont know when is the right time!
he comes online and doesnt even talk to me!! He doesnt call.. He doesnt CARE
He said he Probally will like me as a girlfriend, but now now??? how can u fucking not like someone and then like them like that?? ok If he liked me he woudlnt be able to stop just like i coudlnt stop liking him. Fuck this You either like me like that or u dont! and u know what he didnt ruin my christmas no, fuck that.. what ruined my christmas is how gay it is. its jsut a stuiped holiday where people give u shit, like shit i dont even NEED. and they forget the whole meaning, this is Jesus's birthday, but no,its al MERRY CHRISTMAS. MERRY CHRISTMAS. they dont even mean the TRUE meaning. what is up with this. iam getting mad over some stuiped thing.