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[sagescorpion]

I feel so depressed
I don't want to wake up
I wish I could just sleep this life away
Nothing feels real
Or rather, I feel completely unimportant
I DON'T FEEL REAL
Even these words seem blurry to me
People's lives move and change around me
Always something more important,
This person or that
I long for the days when I felt enough for myself
Or maybe I'm kidding myself
Maybe what I really long for are the days when I felt important to others
Thus, elevating my own feelings of self-worth
But no, this person is sad and that person is unhappy
Everyone so concerned with life and other people
Too busy to see that I am dying
See...these tears don't even feel real
Warm against my face, but fruitless and empty
Why cry?
What's the fuckin point?

Friendships tastes stale
Like Cinnamon Toast Crunch left opened for a month
Neglected, forgotten
That which once was wonderfully satisfying and delicious is now but a hollow crunch
Tasteless, uninviting
Bills mount
What is this life?!?
WHAT THE FUCK IS SO FUCKIN WONDERFUL ABOUT LIFE??
Someone please tell me
Show me
Make me believe
I want to believe...
In something
In anything

I was told that I have the most issues out of my friends
haha...
Case and point.
So what?
I always have
Nice that friends will help me identify that
But offer no assistance
So what?
Why does it even matter?