Shayera gets philosophical - alert the media!
Alright, Sages, here's a question of the rather serious variety for you. Normally I'm not one to get philosophical about these things - at least not in public - but it's been a long few weeks and given certain circumstances this just won't leave me alone. (Gods, devils and angels are all welcome - encouraged, even - to weigh in on this.)
My partner, my mate, Katar Hol - he's gone. As in, not living any more. I don't know exactly where he is, except that it's not here. It's somewhere better than here. Traditional Thanagarian beliefs dictate that there are seven heavens and seven hells; if that's true, he's in a heaven somewhere. If not, he's probably still in a heaven somewhere. He was a Good Man. He had an amazingly strong value for all life. He was brave and loyal and noble. He recycled. If the afterlife rewards the good people, he's being rewarded now.
Problem is, I'm not exactly a Good Person. I shoot people. To kill them. I'm snarky and sometimes downright cruel. I know this. Most of the time I don't think about the Eternal Consequences because someone has to be willing to live in the real world and not shy away from taking out threats in a permanent manner. I don't exactly think that the necessity of the situation makes it right, but it's just what I do. It's what I've always done. I'm a killer. I say that in all honesty, because it's true. That's how I grew up and it's how I've lived and even if I had an epiphany or something I would still be a killer, because you can't ever go back from that.
So. My question is. If Katar is wherever good people go - what are my chances of being with him again when I die?
Be honest. Don't just tell me that everything will be forgiven in the afterlife, unless you know it to be true. I've been holding on to this hope ever since he... went away... and recent developments have got me thinking about it a little more realistically.
So, is there a heaven (or several), and what are my odds of going there?
My partner, my mate, Katar Hol - he's gone. As in, not living any more. I don't know exactly where he is, except that it's not here. It's somewhere better than here. Traditional Thanagarian beliefs dictate that there are seven heavens and seven hells; if that's true, he's in a heaven somewhere. If not, he's probably still in a heaven somewhere. He was a Good Man. He had an amazingly strong value for all life. He was brave and loyal and noble. He recycled. If the afterlife rewards the good people, he's being rewarded now.
Problem is, I'm not exactly a Good Person. I shoot people. To kill them. I'm snarky and sometimes downright cruel. I know this. Most of the time I don't think about the Eternal Consequences because someone has to be willing to live in the real world and not shy away from taking out threats in a permanent manner. I don't exactly think that the necessity of the situation makes it right, but it's just what I do. It's what I've always done. I'm a killer. I say that in all honesty, because it's true. That's how I grew up and it's how I've lived and even if I had an epiphany or something I would still be a killer, because you can't ever go back from that.
So. My question is. If Katar is wherever good people go - what are my chances of being with him again when I die?
Be honest. Don't just tell me that everything will be forgiven in the afterlife, unless you know it to be true. I've been holding on to this hope ever since he... went away... and recent developments have got me thinking about it a little more realistically.
So, is there a heaven (or several), and what are my odds of going there?