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i'm feeling...good. it's 12:31pm, which is incredibly past my bedtime, but i'm feeling good. it's a little disconcerting, how tightly woven my mood is to my ability to achieve/complete things but, there you go.
it was a productive weekend! 12 hours of sleep from friday>saturday, then a lazy saturday of doing not much followed by a really nice night out with josh, that ended up going a little toooo long (we put our name in for a ramen place with a 2.5 hour wait, went somewhere else for apps and beers, then got coffee and dessert, and then came back and still had like an hour which we waited, even though we were both full and not really in the mood to stand around. in the end i couldn't even finish my ramen, it was a bummer. and then immediately to a birthday party at a too-loud bar for josh's group of friends, which is fine and all but he was totally checked out and not being very social), but all in all was a really nice night, and the first time we've done something like that in a while (just kind of wander the city, seeing where the night takes us).
we finally had our budget talk! it went okay, and is really good that we're on the same page about things. it's really making me realize how MUCH I LIKE SHOPPING. it's really at odds with my hatred of owning too many things. it's really important now, since we're talking more regularly about this England/Ireland move: what would we try to bring? what would we do with stuff we didn't want to bring, but also didn't want to get rid of (since i'm erring on the side of caution, and assuming we'll be back)? why do we both own so many shoes and sweatshirts and only wear the same 2-4 things over and over? is it possible to build credit over there while we're still here? how much do we need saved so we can afford to move, and to also travel while we're there (since that's the biggest reason we'd be going)? this move is exciting but frightening, which means it's the right thing to do. i've never been in that kind of situation though, to be so utterly and totally displaced. it'll be good for josh and i; we need to find out how we work, outside of situations we know/understand/feel comfortable with. he's already said he refuses to stay in hostels; sometimes i wish we were more on the same page than we are, but i guess that's just life/people/relationships sometimes!
i've been sick for two weeks, a sickness that ran the full spectrum of bad feelings (sore throat/headaches/nausea/bodyvaches/cough/stuffy and runny nose, all at separate times over 14 days), and through which i had to work because work has been a little obtuse, and i've not had the luxury of stepping back and taking care of myself. couple busy work with busy freelance, a lot of friend expectations, and i've generally been running on empty.
maybe that's why i'm feeling so good! this weekend i took control of some things, which made me feel calmer. all the laundry is hung up/put away, the kitchen is (generally) clean, i put up our xmas decorations because I LOVE THEM and love living around our small tree and it's twinkly lights when we turn off the overheads and hang out. went for a run today for the first time in a while, and designed up a printable weekly one-sheeter to keep track of what i'm planning on doing, vs. what i'm actually doing.
this whole fitness journey has been really great, and has really put me in tune with my body. i finally notice how poorly i feel when i'm not moving around, both physically and mentally (procrastination is something that controlled a lot of my life growing up, and i refuse as much as possible to let it monopolize my attentions), and while i've started with certain goals, it's been interesting to see them evolve. for example, i'm less worried about my ability to run, since my lungs and legs seem to have vaguely gotten their shit together, and am starting to think about my upper body and core, how they're not really doing their part in this adventure. need to start doing weights again, and more core exercises, because our bodies are a giant machine! if only it was as simple as dealing with one or two specifics. the winter time has always been more for me a time of redos-when spring hits, i'd like to bring with it the fruits of many months of hard labor, as opposed to crawling out from hibernation, eyes blinking into the sun. plus, cold air somehow seems easier on my lungs.
next weekend josh and i have commandeered the entire weekend to a clean-and-purge! i'm hoping we can get rid of a lot of things-i can't remember her name, but i read an article about a japanese woman who has gotten famous for her organizing techniques, one of which is to ask yourself "does it bring you joy?". not will it, or could it in the right circumstances, but does it, right then. and if it doesn't, out it goes! all of this is to ease the inevitable process of moving, hopefully making it much easier for future us to deal with.
ahh, it's so late. and i'm trying to be good and get into work at 9 these days. to bed!
it was a productive weekend! 12 hours of sleep from friday>saturday, then a lazy saturday of doing not much followed by a really nice night out with josh, that ended up going a little toooo long (we put our name in for a ramen place with a 2.5 hour wait, went somewhere else for apps and beers, then got coffee and dessert, and then came back and still had like an hour which we waited, even though we were both full and not really in the mood to stand around. in the end i couldn't even finish my ramen, it was a bummer. and then immediately to a birthday party at a too-loud bar for josh's group of friends, which is fine and all but he was totally checked out and not being very social), but all in all was a really nice night, and the first time we've done something like that in a while (just kind of wander the city, seeing where the night takes us).
we finally had our budget talk! it went okay, and is really good that we're on the same page about things. it's really making me realize how MUCH I LIKE SHOPPING. it's really at odds with my hatred of owning too many things. it's really important now, since we're talking more regularly about this England/Ireland move: what would we try to bring? what would we do with stuff we didn't want to bring, but also didn't want to get rid of (since i'm erring on the side of caution, and assuming we'll be back)? why do we both own so many shoes and sweatshirts and only wear the same 2-4 things over and over? is it possible to build credit over there while we're still here? how much do we need saved so we can afford to move, and to also travel while we're there (since that's the biggest reason we'd be going)? this move is exciting but frightening, which means it's the right thing to do. i've never been in that kind of situation though, to be so utterly and totally displaced. it'll be good for josh and i; we need to find out how we work, outside of situations we know/understand/feel comfortable with. he's already said he refuses to stay in hostels; sometimes i wish we were more on the same page than we are, but i guess that's just life/people/relationships sometimes!
i've been sick for two weeks, a sickness that ran the full spectrum of bad feelings (sore throat/headaches/nausea/bodyvaches/cough/stuffy and runny nose, all at separate times over 14 days), and through which i had to work because work has been a little obtuse, and i've not had the luxury of stepping back and taking care of myself. couple busy work with busy freelance, a lot of friend expectations, and i've generally been running on empty.
maybe that's why i'm feeling so good! this weekend i took control of some things, which made me feel calmer. all the laundry is hung up/put away, the kitchen is (generally) clean, i put up our xmas decorations because I LOVE THEM and love living around our small tree and it's twinkly lights when we turn off the overheads and hang out. went for a run today for the first time in a while, and designed up a printable weekly one-sheeter to keep track of what i'm planning on doing, vs. what i'm actually doing.
this whole fitness journey has been really great, and has really put me in tune with my body. i finally notice how poorly i feel when i'm not moving around, both physically and mentally (procrastination is something that controlled a lot of my life growing up, and i refuse as much as possible to let it monopolize my attentions), and while i've started with certain goals, it's been interesting to see them evolve. for example, i'm less worried about my ability to run, since my lungs and legs seem to have vaguely gotten their shit together, and am starting to think about my upper body and core, how they're not really doing their part in this adventure. need to start doing weights again, and more core exercises, because our bodies are a giant machine! if only it was as simple as dealing with one or two specifics. the winter time has always been more for me a time of redos-when spring hits, i'd like to bring with it the fruits of many months of hard labor, as opposed to crawling out from hibernation, eyes blinking into the sun. plus, cold air somehow seems easier on my lungs.
next weekend josh and i have commandeered the entire weekend to a clean-and-purge! i'm hoping we can get rid of a lot of things-i can't remember her name, but i read an article about a japanese woman who has gotten famous for her organizing techniques, one of which is to ask yourself "does it bring you joy?". not will it, or could it in the right circumstances, but does it, right then. and if it doesn't, out it goes! all of this is to ease the inevitable process of moving, hopefully making it much easier for future us to deal with.
ahh, it's so late. and i'm trying to be good and get into work at 9 these days. to bed!