Stormclouds
Extended- family drama has kept building in fervor and pitch, coming to a sort-of head, before going right back into the same intensity after expending so much time, energy, and emotion trying to get things under control. So, nothing resolved, nothing done. Result: I'm a mess. The fireMan has to remind me to eat, and I'm not sleeping. At my checkup Wednesday the midwife was upset about my recent weight loss ( I am back to the weight I was at before being pregnant, which at 5 months along is not really a good thing), raise in blood pressure and near constant headaches, and has put me on basically bedrest, and instructed the fireMan that i am not to pick up the phone, read email, or otherwise re-engage myself in The Whole Mess. Thank god for my best friend Liya, who has come down for the weekend to help out with littleMan, so he's not stuck inside with a crying mama all the time. Fighting the depression that comes along with seeing your extended family-unit being ripped apart at the seams and flung about. Just trying to eat and sleep for the sake of my poor fetus, who imagine is not benefiting from being bathed in the battery-acid mixture of stress hormones I seem to be flowing with. Jane ( midwife) has given me the naturopath's equivalent of a prescription for herbs and tea and tinctures along with the bedrest to relieve some of the physical stress effects, so hopefully I'll start feeling better soon. So long as nothing else happens, god help us all.
-Laurel
-Laurel