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[sagaciousidiot]

so i went to the doc today
and he said the spinal punch said my lower back is fucked up, but it's not the problem.
he wants to test the middle back,
which is gonna cost me more fucking money.
and then i have to go to another neurologist.
i guess it's good because it's not that bad down there,
and i won't be paying for a surgery
but, it's still unknown
and it seems the unknown would be way scarier than anything i might actually be able to see.
i'm sick of doctors,
and them not knowing.
but, i can't really just walk away, because i can't live like this,
i refuse to.